Path: newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.pas.earthlink.net!elnk-nf2-pas!newsfeed.earthlink.net!newshub.sdsu.edu!postnews.google.com!f14g2000cwb.googlegroups.com!not-for-mail From: "Mareel" Newsgroups: alt.startrek.creative Subject: NEW ENT: Always Remember 1/1 [G] (A/R) Date: 19 Jan 2005 05:37:53 -0800 Organization: http://groups.google.com Lines: 82 Message-ID: <1106141873.584218.257270@f14g2000cwb.googlegroups.com> NNTP-Posting-Host: 4.243.61.92 Mime-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset="iso-8859-1" X-Trace: posting.google.com 1106141877 7304 127.0.0.1 (19 Jan 2005 13:37:57 GMT) X-Complaints-To: groups-abuse@google.com NNTP-Posting-Date: Wed, 19 Jan 2005 13:37:57 +0000 (UTC) User-Agent: G2/0.2 Complaints-To: groups-abuse@google.com Injection-Info: f14g2000cwb.googlegroups.com; posting-host=4.243.61.92; posting-account=1x8S4AwAAAAsIaIc_cTPVeKx9cxFO3lH Xref: news.earthlink.net alt.startrek.creative:161993 X-Received-Date: Wed, 19 Jan 2005 05:37:58 PST (newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net) Title: Always Remember Author: Mareel Contact: Mareel@earthlink.net Author's URL: www.geocities.com/bdebpr Series: Enterprise Rating: G Status: Complete Codes: A/R Warning: Implied deathfic Archive: Permission to archive granted to ASC*, EntSTCommunity, Others welcome, please ask. Disclaimer: Of course they belong to Paramount, or more likely, to themselves Spoilers: Zero Hour Summary: Remembering a word... a touch Author's Notes: This is the ninth in the Refuge series (sequel to Cherish, Respect, Shelter, Defend), though it stands on its own as well. This is set post Zero Hour, and is a double drabble, one from Malcolm, one from Jon, both remembering. This one is for Kipli and her Malcolm muse, with my thanks for the inspiration and the memory. *** Always He can't be gone. My mind knows there's no way he could have survived... my heart refuses to acknowledge the emptiness in our bed. He ordered me away... wouldn't accept my sacrifice instead of his. He told me he'd no intention of dying there... and he's never... ever... lied to me. One memory haunts me... at the same time bringing an odd comfort. On one of the last nights we had together, he promised he'd never leave me. When I asked how he could keep that promise, he laid his hand gently on my heart, replying with one word... always. ****************************** Remember Forgive me, Malcolm? Apparently I didn't die... though I almost wish I had, knowing the pain I've caused you... knowing the guilt you'll feel... the ache of facing every day alone and every night. Perhaps I was being selfish, unwilling to risk losing you... needing you to live. One memory haunts me... yet brings a measure of comfort. Something I said, after making love... our last time, it must seem to you. I promised I'd never leave you. You searched my eyes, wanting to believe... not knowing how. I hope you remember through your grief... how I touched your heart. *** Finis NewMessage: