Path: newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.atl.earthlink.net!elnk-atl-nf1!newsfeed.earthlink.net!newsswing.news.prodigy.com!prodigy.net!newsfeed.cwix.com!border1.nntp.dca.giganews.com!nntp.giganews.com!newsread.com!newsstand.newsread.com!POSTED.monger.newsread.com!not-for-mail Newsgroups: alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated Approved: ascem@earthlink.net Organization: Better Living Thru TrekSmut Sender: ascem@earthlink.net Message-ID: From: "temara.rm" MIME-Version: 1.0 Mailing-List: list ASCEML@yahoogroups.com; contact ASCEML-owner@yahoogroups.com Subject: NEW: The Healer Triad VOY C/f, C/P/f NC-17 13/14 Content-Type: text/plain; charset=ISO-8859-1 Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable Lines: 558 Date: Tue, 21 Dec 2004 01:55:29 GMT NNTP-Posting-Host: 209.198.142.218 X-Complaints-To: Abuse Role , We Care X-Trace: monger.newsread.com 1103594129 209.198.142.218 (Mon, 20 Dec 2004 20:55:29 EST) NNTP-Posting-Date: Mon, 20 Dec 2004 20:55:29 EST Xref: news.earthlink.net alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated:86094 X-Received-Date: Mon, 20 Dec 2004 17:56:32 PST (newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net) ************ Part Thirteen ************ See Part One for disclaimer Soon everything was back to normal and they developed a routine=20 adjusting to having Tom in their lives. When he wasn't off to an=20 early meeting, Chakotay would get Tom ready while Tamara tackled the=20 kids. When they reached Sickbay for Tamara's shift, after dropping=20 off the kids with the appointed sitter of the day, they would do a=20 physical therapy session. Following a short rest, Tamara would do=20 another healing on the pilot's hands encouraging the regrowth of=20 muscle, bone and skin tissue especially on his elegant fingers which=20 she hoped one day would be able to dance across her body in delight. "How much longer, Tam?" she could feel his growing frustration at his=20 forced inactivity and his hatred of having to be dependent on Tamara=20 and Chakotay. "From looking at your hands, baby, I'm thinking one or two more=20 healings and these bandages can come off for good." She mused giving=20 the long pale hands a thorough exam with a tricorder and her healing=20 sense. "Why don't you go for a run on the holodeck, Tom? Work off=20 some of your excess energy." No answer from Tom.=20 Preparing new bandages she fitted them to his hands and watched his=20 face and the play of emotions playing havoc there and inside him. "I hate this," he complained bitterly causing her to flinch back from=20 him. "I feel it too, Tom," she responded quietly as she finished the=20 bandages. "I think I will take that run on the holodeck," he said contritely=20 and left without so much as a thank you.=20 Tamara sighed; things were starting to build up between the three of=20 them, especially with Tom holding in so much resentment that he=20 needed help. It was odd, the young man wanted to be wanted, just not=20 helped. This of course placed pressure on her to hurry up the=20 healing, but she was going as fast as she could, and Chakotay just=20 seemed=85distant to it all. //he's just trying to maintain an even=20 keel, // she said to herself, and then forced her mind to focus back=20 on work.=20 ********** A week later, Tamara finished the last healing on Tom's hands and=20 replaced the bandages with soft thermal gloves to keep them warm.=20 Plus it was a gentle reminder to him and everyone else he still had=20 some limitations on mobility, but he was closer than ever to being=20 better. At home he was at ease with the children and played with them for=20 hours on end. The kids were mindful of his hands taking care not to=20 hurt Daddy Tom as they were now calling him. They recently roped him=20 into bedtime stories by holding the books and turning the pages for=20 him. This of course led to arguments over whose turn it was to hold=20 the book or page to turn which led to wrestling matches and yells for=20 Mom to intervene, but she let Tom handle it. By the end of the third week, it was like Tom had always been there=20 as part of the household; which in some way, he had been. Now was the time for the extensive physical therapy for Tom and he=20 pushed himself very hard on this, for he wanted to get back to the=20 helm as fast as he could. Disappointment filled him when he didn't=20 make as much progress as he felt he should have at this point. His=20 anger grew as the days went on and Tamara tried all that she could to=20 distract him, but even that failed; plus it didn't help that Chakotay=20 was taking such a back seat to the whole matter. It was like the man=20 had suddenly forgotten he had a family unless reminded, and with=20 Tom's poor attitude, no one was being reminded of much of anything=20 lately.=20 Then Tom's temper finally blew and he was so disrespectful to Tamara=20 that he had her in tears as he followed her back to their quarters=20 arguing the whole way. His cocky abusive attitude not only made her=20 cry, but by the time they got back, she was mad and she decided to do=20 something about, and since he was acting like a spoiled little brat=85=20 She suddenly grabbed him and pulled him over her knee. "What the=85" he gasped as his pants were shoved down.=20 SMACK! He couldn't believe this was happening to him. A red handprint=20 appeared on his bare firm white ass while his sweat pants were down=20 around his ankles. "OW!" Tom squealed as a matching blow landed on the other cheek. SMACK! "That hurts!" he yelled indignant at the action his face was bright=20 red in embarrassment as he squirmed to get up. "It's supposed to hurt," Tamara replied slapping his ass again. "If=20 you leave my lap, I'll let Chakotay do this and we both know he's a=20 lot stronger than I am, Thomas. Because one way or another you're=20 going to learn not to treat people so poorly or act like a spoiled=20 rotten brat! And if you are going to act like a child, you will be=20 punished like one!" "Yes, ma'am," he promised himself that he would stay on her lap no=20 matter what or how much it hurt and it was already hurting plenty,=20 for if Chakotay got a hold of him and found out what... Shame filled=20 him as he realized how much he deserved this. "You need to learn to watch your mouth, Thomas," Tamara smacked him=20 again not realizing she was addressing him with his formal name. "And=20 some self-discipline. I realize you're frustrated by all this, but=20 with some patience this will be over with soon." Tamara spanked him for quite awhile till his ass began to color up=20 like a bowl of tomato soup. Tears were running down his face when she=20 stopped and let him lie on her lap while stroking his lower back for=20 comfort and letting him regain his composure. Sniffing, he got to his knees beside her on the floor his face=20 repentant. "I'm sorry, Tam," he apologized as he rubbed his sore=20 butt. "It's just so frustrating to be so helpless and have you and=20 Chakotay taking care of all my physical needs." "Its okay, Tom. You are forgiven. Now let's get you cleaned up and=20 we'll have pizza for dinner, all right?" Tamara kissed him and helped=20 him up. She refastened his sweat pants around his waist grinning when=20 he flinched in pain. "All right," he brightened up and followed her into the bathroom=20 where she wiped the dried tears from his face and kissed him=20 senseless. Chakotay noticed Tom's squirming on the couch that evening but didn't=20 say anything when Tamara caught his eye and shook her head no.=20 Picking up another report and putting his feet up on the coffee=20 table, he was not surprised when a tense Tom curled up beside him=20 with his head in his lap. Absently, he rubbed Tom's neck and shoulder=20 feeling the younger man relax under his fingers. It had been a long=20 time since the young man had been so close and it felt good to stroke=20 his soft hair. He then let his hand roam down the pale flesh with a=20 soft exploratory nature.=20 Looking up from her desk, Tamara found Chakotay staring at her with=20 amusement on his face. His hand was on Tom's ass and he could feel=20 the heart rising from the warm flesh while Tom was blushing and=20 hiding his face in the big man's lap. "What caused this?" Chakotay questioned Tamara, with a mixture of=20 amusement and protectiveness. "I think Tom should explain it to you," she replied turning back to=20 her work smiling at the discomfort and embarrassment Tom was feeling,=20 knowing it would be a long time before he ever acted that way again=85 toward her. "Tom, would you care to tell me about this?" he gently squeezed the=20 hot flesh while Tom flinched and squealed from the pain. "I was very disrespectful and smarted off to Tamara during therapy=20 today," he admitted keeping his eyes closed in shame. "I see," he continued rubbing the warm flesh making Tom squirm and=20 his cock got hard. "Stand up, Tom." Getting to his feet, Tom watched curiously as Chakotay put the report=20 down on the table and stood up facing him. He could see and feel the=20 lust rolling off of the stocky man and he shivered in spite of=20 himself he was feeling pretty horny too, for it had been far too long=20 since they touched. Without warning, Chakotay picked Tom up and put the blonde over his=20 shoulder while Tamara looked on in amusement. "Coming, babe?" he asked leering at her to come and join the fun. "Later, you two have fun." She laughed at Tom's look of surprise on=20 his face as he was hauled off to the bedroom where Chakotay would=20 fuck him through the mattress. //Finally,// she said to herself, glad=20 to sense that Chakotay was making a connection to them again. //The=20 man is way too overworked=85and so am I, // she thought, having no=20 choice but to keep working, but wanting to be in the bedroom.=20 They were both deeply asleep when she joined them near midnight and=20 crawled in bed. As she started to sleep she felt something=85another=20 presence, and sat up to concentrate=85but it was gone. She looked=20 around, and shook it off, //girl you got to get more rest. //=20 ************* Tom was cleared for full duty and resumed his place as Chief Pilot on=20 Alpha Shift with Chakotay spending his first few days back happy and=20 content with the world at hand. When he didn't get to spend as much time with Tamara and Chakotay=20 anymore he felt his own doubts and insecurities begin to rise again=20 and on impulse he informed Chakotay that he wished to move back to=20 his own quarters and have time for himself. He just didn't want to=20 confess to the fact that he was scared to death and was feeling=20 overwhelmed by it all. Tamara was so busy in Sickbay lately working on her new project that=20 she hadn't noticed Tom's tension even with their bond until Chakotay=20 broke the news to her. She had forgotten that he needed constant=20 reassurance of their love for him. It also didn't help that Chakotay=20 was busy with his work, taking on extra shifts, even in engineering=20 to help keep Voyager going; it was apparent that Chakotay forgot too. "I don't want Tom to leave, Chakotay. He's part of the family=85he's=85oh=20 hell, I love him and so do you," Tamara yelled when he told her that=20 Tom wanted to move back to his own quarters. "He makes us complete." "But it's his decision," Chakotay stated, and then tried to hold her,=20 but she stepped away from him, and he gave a frustrated sigh. They didn't hear the door open to their quarters or realize that the=20 subject of their discussion was just outside the bedroom door. "Did we do something wrong?" The raw pain in her voice cut through=20 him. "I thought he was happy here. The children absolutely adore=20 their daddy Tom." "Take it easy. Don't get worked up," Chakotay could feel the hysteria=20 welling up inside of her. In the hall, Tom could feel it too. Tom had not realized till now how much being part of the family meant=20 to him. Outside of his smartass attitude, they accepted him without=20 hesitation and loved him. He was leaving because he didn't feel=20 worthy of Chakotay and Tamara's love and that he was the cause of why=20 things were so distant between them all. "I'll fucking get worked up if I want too, Chakotay," she spat at him=20 furious than she sagged on the bed her energy gone. Tears fell down=20 her face and he sat next to her and placed an arm around her=20 shoulder.=20=20 "You said he would stay." "I said I hoped he would stay, but the final decision was his. Don't=20 put words in my mouth," he snapped, his anger was beginning to show=20 as he removed his arm and stood up. "If I was going to put words in your mouth, I'd put them there!" she=20 snapped back. "Like the way you fucked with my mind so I'd fuck Tom in sickbay!"=20 The words were out before anyone knew what was said, and a deaf=20 silence hung in the air as Chakotay realized what he said, and why.=20 His frustration turned too blood curdling, chilling anger. "You=85you=85"=20 he couldn't speak; the realization was too much for him at the=20 moment.=20 Tom heard the fury, and he himself couldn't believe what he had=20 heard, but the overwhelming guilt flowing from Tamara only supported=20 the accusation in being true. He pressed his back to the wall,=20 needing something to hold himself up with, for the knowledge that=20 Chakotay had come to him that night, that it wasn't a dream, and that=20 he was=85made to do it=85was overwhelming him. Then on an impulse of=20 energy he ran from the quarters as fast as his feet could carry him.=20 "You have to understand, I was desperate, Tom was dying=85I=85" "Shut up," he growled, and didn't even flinch when she gasped at him,=20 for he never talked to her like that before. He looked like he was=20 going to say more, and then stopped, raising his hands in disgust and=20 stormed out.=20 Tamara fell to the floor weeping, for what she feared most just=20 occurred, the truth was out. Then when she thought about Tom, she=20 could sense it=85he had been here, he heard the whole thing. The grief=20 and guilt overwhelmed her, for it was her fault that her family, what=20 she loved most was now destroyed.=20 =09=20 ************ Tom ran to the nearest observation lounge and locked himself in, for=20 he needed privacy, since he didn't have his own quarters anymore. He=20 fell to his knees, pain of realization, hurt, and anger, all of it=20 overwhelming him. He wanted to simply get away from it, run=85fly=85get=20 away as fast and as far as he could, not caring about consequences or=20 anything else. But there was no place to go, and so he curled up into=20 a tight ball and cried himself into and exhausted sleep.=20 Tom suddenly found himself in a wooded glen broken with rays of=20 sunshine streaming through the leaves and branches. Strolling to the=20 center of the glen, he found a silver furred wolf, a red sorrel=20 stallion and a golden falcon, sitting near each other waiting=85waiting=20 for him. There was a feeling of peace, love and contentment=20 surrounding him as he wondered what was going on, for he never had a=20 dream like this before, and he was sure these types of animals didn't=20 make it a normal practice of sitting around together. "You seem confused, young one," the wolf spoke to Tom. "What is this place?" Tom wondered as he stared at the animals and=20 they returned the look. "This is a place of spirits. We are the triad on this level as you=20 are part of one on the other," the falcon answered. "So this is the place where Chakotay and Tamara come too on their=20 vision quests," he sat down cross-legged in the grass before them,=20 totally amazed at being here. "Why are you running away from your life mates," the red stallion=20 asked while he nuzzled Tom's cheek. "Why am I here?" he rubbed the stallion's neck, not wanting to answer=20 that question, so asked one of his own. "I wanted to meet you at least once before you leave, my friend," the=20 falcon looked him in the eye. "I would have been a guide, friend or=20 whatever you needed, but without help you will not be able to return.=20 Though if you do seek help and still leave the circle will be broken=20 and all will go their separate ways as will we." Suddenly the peace, love and contentment vanished leaving negative=20 feelings of sorrow, hopelessness, anger and shame. "Is this the circle that Tamara refers too once in awhile?" Tom asked=20 with growing dread. "We make up the inner circle while you, Chakotay and Tamara make up=20 the outer circle, all working in unison," the wolf answered. "Meaning if I leave Tay and Tam, everything will fall apart and they=20 will break up?" Tom questioned, astonished at how vital he was to=20 this union. "The child gains wisdom," the stallion snorted shaking his neck=20 causing his mane to go every which way and covering his eyes with=20 long strands of hair. "Sometimes, we find it necessary to stick our noses in the outer=20 plane's business." the falcon interjected. "We brought you=20 intentionally so you could learn what could happen if you leave, Tom,=20 for they not only need you now, they will need you even more in the=20 times to come." "What do you mean?" Tom asked with great concern. "And what about=20 what she did? Forcing me and Chakotay=85" "No one `forced' you to do anything but admit how you feel," the=20 Falcon replied.=20 "Tamara is guilty of entering the sacred places of your minds and=20 bringing forth what she found there and placing things into motion,=20 nothing more. She didn't make you want to be with Chakotay, your own=20 heart did that," the Horse explained.=20 "And no one made Chakotay love you that was his own heart. Plus,=20 where would you be now if she didn't connect you and Chakotay?" the=20 Wolf asked.=20 Tom thought about it. He had to admit, if he didn't experience=20 Chakotay's love that night, he probably would have found a way to end=20 his life, and he would have missed out on loving the man of his=20 dreams, and a very good woman. Then with a sigh, "I'd have been truly=20 lost," he finally admitted.=20 "I'm proud of you child," the Falcon praised. "Now if that seed of=20 wisdom can be sowed into others, than all will not be lost either."=20 "As with all things, the choice is yours to make. No one will stand=20 in your way, child," stated the wolf. "It is always a free choice as=20 to which path you want to take=85together or alone." All three faded out and the wooded glen spun away and Tom sat up his=20 heart racing while gasping for air while sweat poured off his body,=20 he was still in the observation lounge. He stood up and realized he=20 had spent most of the night here and headed back. He realized how=20 much he loved his `family' and how stupid he was being, and that if=20 they needed him, he was going to be there for them=85no matter what. He=20 started to run back home and dashed through the doors and found=20 Tamara sitting on the sofa, alone, wrapped in a blanket, staring off=20 in the distance.=20 Bursting into tears, Tom moved to his bond mate and hugged her=20 fiercely. She hugged him back holding his head to her chest and=20 rocking the distraught pilot while he sobbed uncontrollably for=20 awhile. His crying gradually softened to some sniffles. "I don't want to leave," Tom whispered peering up at her with tear=20 stained lashes. He sounded like a lost little boy. "I want us to be a=20 family and I don't care how it started; only that it lasts!"=20 "Oh, Tom," Tamara cried, feeling that she was forgiven by him, and=20 the relief filled her aching heart. "I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt=20 or break trust, but=85you were leaving us, and I knew=85I knew how much=20 you loved Chakotay, and how much he loved you. That you would do=20 nothing to hurt him and would fight for him if=85if you knew. I was=20 wrong about how I did what I did, I should of spoke with Chakotay,=20 but I also knew that both your sense of honor would step in=85I=85you=20 needed," she sighed, and cried some more, holding the young man she=20 loved very much.=20 "Like I said, I don't care how it happened, but your right. I see=20 that now, and if you tell me now, that that was the only time=85"=20 "It was=85I swear. I love and respect both of you so very much, but I=20 couldn't lose you, Tom, and I know Chakotay couldn't either." She=20 confessed truthfully on his part and neither realized that she had=20 been in Chakotay's mind on several occasions while they were on=20 Rashela. Tom hugged her tightly, and let his love flow to her and accepted=20 hers, and could feel some of her guilt and grief lesson, but was far=20 from gone. There was still a part of their family missing=85Chakotay,=20 and Tom was concerned he couldn't feel him. "Did you block him out?" Tamara looked into bright blue eyes, her own filled with=20 remorse, "No, he's blocked `me' out. Between his meditations and his=20 lessons with Tuvok, he can do that now," she sniffed, while wiping=20 her wet face. "I tried to talk to him, but=85" "He shut you out," Tom finished for her, for he understood the=20 Commander very well, and this was like him when things overwhelmed=20 him emotionally. "The man can face down the Borg Queen and never=20 break a sweat, but he can't face his own emotions without a time=20 out," Tom stated, feeling a hundred percent better. He knew in his=20 heart the three of them were destined to be together, but that didn't=20 mean things would be easy, only that they would face it all together.=20 "A time out can be a good thing=85I hope," Tamara replied, fear in her=20 eyes of what results Chakotay may come up with.=20 "Let me talk to him, okay?" He saw her nod yes, "I=85I know things are=20 going to work out=85some how," he stated, and leaned in and gave her a=20 kiss on the cheek before heading out. He knew where Chakotay was=20 without even checking, there was only one place=85his office.=20 ************ Chakotay was in his office standing by the view port, leaning his=20 head against the thick clear material that was used, his arms wrapped=20 tightly around his chest.=20 When the chime sounded, he gave a heavy sigh, "Enter," he replied and=20 stood up straight. He turned to see Tom Paris enter, and didn't=20 bother changing his body language. "What can I do for you Tom?" he=20 asked, though his eyes were not warm, his tone was gentle.=20 "I think it's more of what I can do for you, Cha," Tom replied softly=20 as he walked up to stand next to the First Officer, a bit surprised=20 that Chakotay wasn't as upset as he anticipated. "First, I should let=20 you know I was there=85when the `shit' hit the fan; in the next room as=20 a matter of fact and heard the whole thing. I too was upset and angry=20 about what Tamara did=85but I've had a lot of time to think=85" "Your telling me, that you're not angry that she violated your mind,=20 and manipulated us into making love in the sickbay, and then making=20 sure we didn't remember it?" he asked in disbelief.=20 "I didn't say that only that I had time to think about it. But I am=20 saying that I love Tamara and I `love' you, and I want us to be=20 together, and I don't care how it came about. Though I do understand=20 one thing, if she didn't do what she did, if you didn't come to me=20 and share `your' love with me=85I wouldn't be here." Tom could see his=20 words made Chakotay think, as his dark eyes shifted away from him.=20 "Cha, I love you, and you were my reason for fighting to stay alive.=20 Can you really fault her in this? Sure how she went about it was=20 wrong, but would you have come to me that night if she had asked?"=20 Chakotay took a cleansing breath, "No, probably not," he admitted,=20 and then turned to face Tom. "And I meant what I said that night; I=20 couldn't bear to lose you too."=20 Tom moved in and wrapped his arms around the man that stirred his=20 soul like no other and hugged him. He was glad that Chakotay hugged=20 him back, but could feel the man was still distant, his barriers in=20 full swing. "Cha, love, what's wrong?" Tom asked with=20 concern. "Besides, this mess I made or what Tamara did? You've been=20 so=85distant lately?" "It's just so=85confusing," Chakotay replied hugging Tom, resting his=20 head on his shoulder and became silent. He let his strong hands=20 caress up the lean back.=20 "Cha, are we going to be able to work this out?"=20 There was silence for a while, then, "Yes, Tommy, we'll work it out.=20 I rather like having you around," he said, his voice more light than=20 it had been in ages. "And your right, she did do wrong, but in this=20 case, the end totally justifies the means," he said, as he leaned=20 back and met moist blue eyes looking at him.=20 "Then let's let her know=85okay?"=20 "Okay," Chakotay replied warmly, and took Tom's hand and followed him=20 back so the three of them could talk things out.=20 ************ "NO MORE OF THIS!" Tamara declared rather loudly. "We will be married=20 before the end of the week and that will settle that. All three of=20 us."=20 "Marry you?" Tom asked in disbelief. They had settled that what=20 occurred in the past had been wrong, but the result could not be=20 denied, and so she had been forgiven. But then Tamara stated that she=20 couldn't take another major upset should Tom get insecure again, and=20 suddenly burst out with a solution.=20 "Yes, to both of us," Tamara stated firmly and would not broker a no=20 from either man. Neither man could refuse her when she put her foot down, especially=20 when it really was the answer to everything. The small simple wedding would be this Saturday and this would put=20 Tom's fears at rest for good. No more guessing games for marriage=20 vows meant he was committed to staying in the relationship with the=20 both of them. He would have no excuses for running away plus it made=20 him an instant father and he adored the kids just as much as if they=20 were his own. The marriage would be the first triad on Voyager, but a couple of=20 others were already in the works, but like usual, the senior staff=20 would lead the way.=20 "It would be good for the children." Chakotay stated, for in his=20 culture, the children were raised not just by the family but the=20 whole tribe, and this was fast becoming a large tribe. Her other demand was that Chakotay should spend more time with the=20 family. Lately he had fallen onto his old ways of working late and=20 getting up early to do more work, and this was no longer acceptable=20 by her or Tom.=20 "Reports to be taken care of? That's an easy one," she had told him=20 while looking at Tom. "We'll cut back on his Sickbay shifts. I am a=20 fully qualified Doctor now and I am currently training three other=20 people in Sickbay now. Have Tom spend a couple of half shifts weekly=20 learning and doing reports since he is fourth in line for the command=20 structure."=20 Chakotay gave a small protest, but caved in, for peace was the=20 essential key, as was keeping the `family' happy.=20 There was a small wedding in the mess hall that Saturday night and a=20 wonderful three day honeymoon in the West Virginia program that=20 Tamara had made with Tom's help, and Chakotay's input. It was one of=20 the first things the three had done together, long before they made=20 love, and the symbolism wasn't lost on any of them.=20 ************ End of Part Thirteen ************ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ASCEM messages are copied to a mailing list. Most recent messages can be found at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEML. NewMessage: