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Subject: [ASCEM-S] NEW: VOY C/P Disappeared, without a trace 5/9 R - NC17
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Title: Disappeared, without a trace 5/9
Author: Darksusie - February 04
Series: Voyager
Pairing C/P P/K C/other
Rating: R - NC17
Disclaimer: Voyager and her crew are the property of
Paramount. 
Summary: Chakotay offers to help Harry Kim 

Tom staggered to his cabin, called for a privacy lock
and sank to his knees weeping. He felt cheap and
dirty. Not only had he let Chakotay use him, he'd
cheated on Harry. He felt frightened and not only of
the Commander's threats but also of the effect
Chakotay was having on him and his life. There must
be something seriously wrong with the Commander, he
wasn't acting anything like the man he once knew. 
Getting a shower he tried to put what had happened to
him in perspective. He hadn't technically been
unfaithful but Harry would be very hurt if he knew
about what had happened between the Chakotay and Tom. 
Harry was very insecure where the Commander was
concerned, knowing that if he hadn't disappeared Harry
wouldn't have stood a chance with Tom. As for the
threat of killing Harry, he would discuss this with
the Captain and Tuvok as soon as he could, the
personality changes he would discuss with the doctor.

Heading for Sandrine's, Tom tried to put things to the
back of his mind. He would meet with Harry, play some
pool, have a few drinks, and then back to Harry's for
some sweet, slow loving. That should put thinks back
on an even keel for a while. The first thing he saw
when he entered the bar was the Commander sat in a
booth. Chakotay looked up and caught Tom's eye, then
slowly and deliberately leant forward and kissed Tabor
on the lips. Tom watched as the Commander's hand
slowly made its way up the ensign's shirt then stopped
as it slowly rubbed over his nipple. Tom swallowed
hard, unable to turn away. Nobody else had noticed
and it was only when Harry called that he was able to
drag himself away from the scene in front of him. All
the unsettling feelings were back. But uppermost was
jealousy. Chakotay was his lover, only his. Up until
their affair Chakotay had never been with a man. Tom
was his first and only one. Tom shook his head, he
was getting confused, Chakotay had been Tom's lover
but not any more. He glanced back at the booth, both
of them sipping their drinks like nothing had
happened. Gods, he felt like he was going crazy. 

Turning back to Harry he started the game but his
heart wasn't in it. He leant over to Harry, "let's go,
I want us to be alone." 

Harry was eager too, so they said their goodnights and
headed to the door. Tom had one last glance at the
booth but they were both gone. Walking back through
the quiet corridors Tom squeezed Harry's hand
affectionately. Just as they turned the corner to
Harry's cabin they were stopped in their tracks. 
Leaning on Tabor's door was the ensign and the
Commander in an intimate embrace, oblivious to their
surroundings. Tabor's hands were all over the
Commander's back, pulling him in closer and Chakotay's
hands were busy massaging Tabor's ass. Harry looked
at Tom, amazement and amusement in his eyes. Tom
grabbed Harry's hand and pulled him towards the cabin.


"Goodnight Tabor, Goodnight Chakotay," Harry shouted
just as Tom was entering the cabin. 

"What the fuck did you do that for?" Tom glared at
Harry, the tension making him short tempered. 

"Calm down, I just wanted them to know we'd seen them,
that's all. Can you believe Captain Maquis and the
young Bajoran. What will the crew make of this new
development?" Harry unaware of Tom's silence continued
to prattle on. "Well at least he's not losing any
sleep over you," with this Harry grabbed Tom and
kissed him soundly. 

Tom pulled away and made for the shower. As soon as
the door closed he let the tears fall. He loved Harry
so why was he so upset about Chakotay, especially
after the way he had treated him earlier. But every
time he thought about his ex-lover and Tabor his heart
lurched. He looked in the mirror and gave himself a
serious talking to. Harry was the man he loved. 
Chakotay was turning into a manic psychopath. Harry
was the man for him. He would see the Captain in the
morning, she would sort things out. Harry was the one
who could make him happy.

Climbing into bed, Tom took Harry into his arms
kissing him hard. Making his way down Harry's body,
he teased the hard cock with his tongue. Hearing
Harry moan he sucked harder. Doing all the things he
knew Harry liked he brought him off quickly and then
turned over. He needed to think, with all the thoughts
going around in his head there was no way he could
maintain an erection and Harry would start asking
questions. 

Harry snaked his arm around Tom to start rubbing him,
"OK Tom, your turn." 

"Sorry Harry, I'm just too tired tonight, let's just
cuddle." 

Harry was worried, Tom was never too tired for
lovemaking. Was he making excuses because the
Commander was back? All the old insecurities came
rushing back.

Both of them lay, back-to-back, unable to sleep, both
awake for different reasons, but both thinking about
the same man.

Next day Harry was making his way to the bridge when
Chakotay shouted for him to hold the turbo lift. 
Harry felt unsettled stood next to the Commander. 
"Harry you're a very lucky man. Congratulations on the
wedding. No hard feelings." 

He reached out and shook his hand. He called for the
lift to halt. Then slowly he took Harry's face in his
hands and leant over and kissed him. Harry resisted,
as much as he could, but the Commander was strong and
Harry despite himself was enjoying the kiss. Chakotay
pulled away. "You know Harry, you can always come to
me if Tom can't satisfy all your needs." Chakotay
again leaned in closer, "I could fuck you till you
didn't know what your name was." Turning to the front
he called, "deck 6."

Chakotay got out at the next floor, leaving the ensign
shaking. By the time Harry had got to the bridge he
had just about pulled himself together, but not quite.
Tom turned when the doors opened and smiled at the
ensign. Straight away he knew that something was
wrong, but it would have to wait till later to find
out.

When the Captain called Tom in to her office he told
her about Chakotay threatening to kill Harry, told her
that Chakotay had come onto him. He omitted to tell
her about the incident, as he called it. Tom wasn't
surprised when she said she wasn't going to confront
Chakotay, Tom's argument had sounded weak even to his
own ears. But he was surprised when she asked Tom if
they wouldn't mind postponing the wedding till thinks
settled down. She then advised Tom not to tell Harry
about the threat till she had a discussion with the
Commander and also with Tuvok. She asked Tom if he
had discussed events with Harry but Tom explained that
he was little embarrassed about his reaction to
Chakotay, that he still had feelings for him and he
couldn't tell Harry that. In fact they hadn't spoken
much about Chakotay's return at all. Janeway
reassured Tom that both herself and Tuvok would keep
an eye on the Commander and if anything disturbing
happened they would act on it.

After dinner, Tom suggested Sandrine's, Harry had been
tense but insisted he was just a little tired. They
both relaxed after a couple of games of pool and then
joined Greg and Geron in one of the booths. They were
having a good laugh when Greg's face turned serious,
showing his anger. 

"What's the matter Greg?" Tom turned to see what
Ayala was glaring at. Chakotay was leant at the bar,
all in black as usual, with the Delaney twins hanging
onto his arms and on his every word. The Commander
was lapping it up. 

Ayala's voice was nearly a growl. "I don't know what
the bastard's playing at. He's gone from celibate
priest, except for you," he nodded at Tom, "to being
the easiest lay on the ship."

Tom turned back at this, "oh come on, he's not been
back that long."

"Yeah and in that time, he's slept with Nicolletti,
Wilders, seduced Tabor, and that's what I'm worried
about. You know how vulnerable Tabor is and
Chakotay's just going to use him and break his heart. 
I've already seen him crying. I can't believe what
the Commander is doing and nobody can see it.
Everybody's taken in with his charm, they can't see
how different he is." 

"I can Greg." Tom was going to tell him about some of
the things he had said, though not the personal ones,
when Greg interrupted.

"Oh fuck, he's coming over." Ayala looked down.

"Evening Tom. Greg." Chakotay's eyes lingered on
Harry, "How's things Harry?" and gave him his usual
dazzling smile. "Geron it's good to see you again,
Greg must be treating you well". Geron looked up into
the dark sparkling eyes. Geron had always admired the
Commander, in fact it was more like hero worship. 
Greg took one look at Geron's adoration and grabbed
his hand. "Goodnight," he nodded at Harry and Tom and
pulled Geron away.

"You don't mind if I join you?" and without waiting
for an answer the Commander sat down. 

"So not long to go till the big day," and a genuine
smile seemed to reach Chakotay's eyes. Tom was
getting more and more confused. He hadn't discussed
the postponement with Harry, he was waiting till they
were alone tonight. He wasn't looking forward to the
discussion, Harry was not confident about the
relationship at the best of times. Before either
Harry or Tom could respond Tabor slipped in beside
Chakotay. They made small talk and the conversation
seemed to be going well. After a while Tom noticed
the atmosphere change. He watched as Chakotay began
rubbing his hand up and down the ensign's thigh. Tom
was appalled, jealous, angry, and ready to cry. He
was just going to say something when Chakotay turned
to Tabor, and leant in for a long hard kiss. Tom
stood up, scared of the jealous rage that was building
up inside, when he glanced down. Chakotay's hand was
now rubbing Tabor's obvious erection, slowly while
Tabor moaned and opened his legs for more contact. 

"You know Chakotay I just don't know who you are any
more." Tom managed to get out but the couple just
ignored him.






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