Path: newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.atl.earthlink.net!elnk-atl-nf1!newsfeed.earthlink.net!prodigy.com!prodigy.com!newsprint.newsread.com!early-edition.newsread.com!bad-news.newsread.com!news-toy.newsread.com!netaxs.com!newsread.com!POSTED.newshog.newsread.com!not-for-mail Newsgroups: alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated Approved: ascem@earthlink.net Organization: Better Living Thru TrekSmut Sender: ascem@earthlink.net Message-ID: From: "Allison Kulp" MIME-Version: 1.0 Mailing-List: list ASCEML@yahoogroups.com; contact ASCEML-owner@yahoogroups.com Subject: NEW DS9: The Lies We Tell Ourselves Become Our Truth (Duty challenge; M, G) Rat Content-Type: text/plain; charset=ISO-8859-1 Content-Transfer-Encoding: 7bit Lines: 34 Date: Mon, 06 Sep 2004 22:55:15 GMT NNTP-Posting-Host: 209.198.142.218 X-Complaints-To: Abuse Role , We Care X-Trace: newshog.newsread.com 1094511315 209.198.142.218 (Mon, 06 Sep 2004 18:55:15 EDT) NNTP-Posting-Date: Mon, 06 Sep 2004 18:55:15 EDT Xref: news.earthlink.net alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated:83913 X-Received-Date: Mon, 06 Sep 2004 15:57:46 PDT (newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net) Title: The Lies We Tell Ourselves Become Our Truth Author: cardassianfire Contact: cardassianfire at yahoo Series: DS9 Codes: M,G Rating: PG Note: For duty challenge I'm becoming soft in my old age. I should have killed him. I would have, in the old days. The torture would have lasted for days. I would have ripped that damn implant with my bare hands and let him feel everything. Every nerve ending would have been on fire and he'd be begging with me again, pleading to end the pain, just like when he was a child. Children need discipline. Elim, he was such a wicked little creature. But then, with a parent like Mila, that can only be expected. I told her, kill the child or I'll kill both of you. After all, an honorable man does not allow bastards running under his feet in his own home. But then she showed me him, and I saw myself reflected in his eyes. A real Cardassian would have bashed his brains out then and there. But no, sentiment got in the way of duty. But then, if Mila had been a real Cardassian, she'd have killed herself after the first time I took her. Not only for putting up with the first rape, nor the humiliation of being at my beck and call for any of my needs, but keeping the monster and expecting me to educate him. She should know what a real Cardassian family is; a servant, her rapist, and a bastard son of the coupling is most definitely not it. It's all her and Elim's fault, this whole nasty affair. When did I lose my edge? When did I let these petty feelings win? ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ASCEM messages are copied to a mailing list. Most recent messages can be found at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEML. NewMessage: