Path: newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.atl.earthlink.net!elnk-atl-nf1!newsfeed.earthlink.net!prodigy.com!news.glorb.com!border1.nntp.dca.giganews.com!nntp.giganews.com!newsread.com!newsstand.newsread.com!POSTED.monger.newsread.com!not-for-mail Newsgroups: alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated Approved: ascem@earthlink.net Organization: Better Living Thru TrekSmut Sender: ascem@earthlink.net Message-ID: <20040817230658.99E06396D@sitemail.everyone.net> From: Amphioxous Obnoxious MIME-Version: 1.0 Mailing-List: list ASCEML@yahoogroups.com; contact ASCEML-owner@yahoogroups.com Subject: NEW TOS "Voice" S/Mc (PG) 1/1 vignette Content-Type: text/plain; charset=US-ASCII Content-Transfer-Encoding: 7bit Lines: 91 Date: Wed, 18 Aug 2004 00:55:02 GMT NNTP-Posting-Host: 209.198.142.218 X-Complaints-To: Abuse Role , We Care X-Trace: monger.newsread.com 1092790502 209.198.142.218 (Tue, 17 Aug 2004 20:55:02 EDT) NNTP-Posting-Date: Tue, 17 Aug 2004 20:55:02 EDT Xref: news.earthlink.net alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated:82836 X-Received-Date: Tue, 17 Aug 2004 17:55:05 PDT (newsspool2.news.atl.earthlink.net) Title: Voice Author: Amphioxous Obnoxious Series: TOS Pairing: S/Mc Rating: PG, vignette Summary: Spock died, and McCoy starts to hear voices. VOICE "Leonard." [ newsgroup posting-script note: line exceeds 512 bytes. Line being reformatted] I am hallucinating. That's the only poss ible explanation for the vividness of th e voice I hear. I am not drunk; it has b een hours since I stumbled home from the wake, my steps faltering for reasons ot her than alcohol anyway. I have never ha d a very strong imagination, so this exp erience terrifies me. The impossible, th e absurd, the fantastical... happening b efore me with the same prosaic reality o f the rest of my life. I hear the voice now just as I've always heard him when w e were melded--inside my head, with that surprising lack of the echo one expects when hearing someone speak from inside your skull. [end of reformatted line] "Leonard, please." I wonder if this will pass or if instead I will be forced to turn to Christine and have myself declared medically unsound. Unbalanced--my life, my practice, my career--I see them all misting away before me, fading away before the fantasy my mind insists is a reality. It cannot be his voice. He is dead. "Leonard, I wish to see you. I must... see you." "So look at me, Spock. I'm right here. Where are you?" I ask the room aloud, throwing up my hands in frustration. "Go to the mirror," he answers. I'm surprised when he does. So even a hallucination has an internal logic. I didn't realize--I've never had one before. "What?" "The mirror," he repeats. "I will see you through your own eyes." With a deep breath I contemplate this invitation. Do I stand, and commit myself to the fantasy--and a mental ward? Or do I ignore the voice, ignore its pleading, and try once more to sleep? Could I ever ignore him? Can I bear to deny this voice anything it asks? Never. Trying not to consider what bridge I have now crossed, I leave the bed and order the lights on, but only barely. Then, unclothed, I stand before the mirror. I hardly even notice my own reflection. "Your eyes," comments the voice, softer now, with the emotion he long since gave up denying, "are torn--from weeping. But they are still beautiful." I look at the mirror and see nothing beautiful. "Was it that bad up in Heaven, Spock, that you decided to come back down and spend your time botherin' me?" I kid the fantasy gently, swallowing uncomfortably. "This is my place," he tells me, and I know exactly what he is talking about. This IS his place, with me. I suddenly grow fiercely possessive of my little fantasy, or whatever it is. I have had too much. Now I hope it never leaves. I return to the bed, and with my eyes closed but my hands active, I give in to everything he asks. --the end?-- _____________________________________________________________ Animail.com - "Saving Animals & the Environment One E-Mail At A Time." Raise money for Animal and Environmental organizations by using a FREE email address from Animail.com! Choose from over 200 options, including: YourName@Animail.com YourName@LizardLover.com YourName@SaveDolphins.com YourName@GiantPandas.net YourName@ILoveLlamas.com YourName@ProtectAnimals.com. http://www.Animail.com ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ASCEM messages are copied to a mailing list. Most recent messages can be found at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEML. NewMessage: