Path: newsspool1.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.atl.earthlink.net!stamper.news.pas.earthlink.net!elnk-nf2-pas!newsfeed.earthlink.net!wn14feed!worldnet.att.net!204.71.34.3!newsfeed.cwix.com!border1.nntp.dca.giganews.com!nntp.giganews.com!newsread.com!newsstand.newsread.com!POSTED.newshog.newsread.com!not-for-mail Newsgroups: alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated Approved: ascem@earthlink.net Organization: Better Living Thru TrekSmut Sender: ascem@earthlink.net Message-ID: From: "trivawolfe" MIME-Version: 1.0 Mailing-List: list ASCEML@yahoogroups.com; contact ASCEML-owner@yahoogroups.com Subject: NEW TOS: A Need from the Beginning, 1/2 [NC-17] K/Sa, Sa/Am, Sa/m#1, Sa/m#2, Sa/ Content-Type: text/plain; charset=ISO-8859-1 Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable Lines: 957 Date: Wed, 06 Oct 2004 00:55:07 GMT NNTP-Posting-Host: 209.198.142.218 X-Complaints-To: Abuse Role , We Care X-Trace: newshog.newsread.com 1097024107 209.198.142.218 (Tue, 05 Oct 2004 20:55:07 EDT) NNTP-Posting-Date: Tue, 05 Oct 2004 20:55:07 EDT Xref: news.earthlink.net alt.startrek.creative.erotica.moderated:85007 X-Received-Date: Tue, 05 Oct 2004 17:56:09 PDT (newsspool1.news.atl.earthlink.net) A Need from the Beginning Title: A Need from the Beginning Author: T'Riva (rstrimble@sbcglobal.net/ ) =09=20=20=20 T'Riva's Sarek Sanctum:=20 http://www.geocities.com/rstrimble@sbcglobal.net/ Series: TOS Pairings: K/Sa, Sa/Am, Sa/m#1, Sa/m#2, Sa/m#3 Warnings: NC-17, plain ol' sex =96 het & slash; mild=20 dom/sub; `consensual' non-con Acknowledgements: I would like to thank Selek for the fabulous beta=20 read, par usu=E1le. Archive: ASCEM; Sarek Fun Fest; Sarek Slash Page; SluFF; all others=20 please ask. Disclaimer: Paramount owns these guys, I just take them out to play=20 and don't get paid. Summary: A couple years after the journey to Babel, Sarek calls on=20 NOTE: Full story, in bigger, easier to read print, will appear today=20 on my website @ http://www.geocities.com/rstrimble@sbcglobal.net/ If Kirk had thought his stand-off with the ambassador on the journey=20 to Babel a couple years before was uncomfortable, he had=20 underestimated how uncomfortable the man could make him. Called to=20 the Vulcan's office in a stern tone that brooked no dalliance, Kirk=20 had hustled through the weekend San Francisco bustle to the=20 Federation complex that continually buzzed 24/7. The Enterprise had just docked and her personnel were readying for=20 shore leave. Kirk had just beamed down and was sauntering through=20 the breezy, narrow streets, stepping from crisp shadows still moist=20 with fog to shards of glaring late-morning sun, refamiliarizing=20 himself with the scents and sounds of his adopted hometown, San=20 Francisco. He had been considering a hollowed sourdough loaf filled=20 with clam chowder, or a fresh crab or prawn cocktail from=20 Fisherman's Wharf, along with a spicy Bloody Mary, piquant with=20 shredded horseradish sprouting its leafy branch of celery. Since his visits to Earth always started off here at the Federation=20 capital, and it was such a charming and cosmopolitan city with=20 generally everything one could want for shore leave, he often failed=20 to go elsewhere on the shorter `vacations' allowed. On the few-and- far-between longer stops, at least he had more reason to go to Iowa=20 to visit with his mother. It often amazed him how inefficient such=20 short transit hops were. He would spend at least half a day=20 wrangling through lines and transfer stops and be exhausted by=20 shuttle-lag for a full day after, thereby sacrificing almost two=20 days of his minimal leave on Earth. It seemed to take far less=20 effort crossing from one solar system to the next on the Enterprise!=20 Sarek and Amanda often resided in San Francisco at the Vulcan=20 Embassy, especially since Sarek accepted a senior Federation Council=20 post, and so Spock had begun again to visit with his parents,=20 leaving Kirk hanging about for the son and amusing himself before=20 and after the ever-lengthening parental visits. Kirk had opted out=20 of joining him before for several reasons, but mostly so that the=20 three could reconnect unfettered by his needs. But Spock was more=20 comfortable with them, and Kirk was now starting to feel left out. He was reconsidering visiting with the renewed family, just as his=20 First had stopped even asking him to join them. Amanda had begun to=20 give Kirk a wistful, almost hurt, look when they bumped into each=20 other elsewhere. Even Sarek had looked at him with what seemed a=20 bit of sadness and befuddlement, as if trying to understand what he=20 could have done to scare Kirk away, though his imposing figure had=20 been part of Kirk's rationalization of avoidance to begin with. He=20 would have to approach Spock and rebuild that bridge. He started to=20 feel as if he had hurt all three now. He was escorted promptly to Ambassador/Councilor Sarek's foreboding=20 Federation office. It was huge, with a staggering view that rivaled=20 the Federation president's the one time Kirk had seen it, and=20 bespoke this Vulcan's power in the Federation. Whenever he'd seen a=20 vid of the president's office during important events and=20 announcements, he had noticed Sarek almost always sat in a chair=20 behind and to the right of the president. He had also noticed that=20 the two referred to each other by their given names, except when in=20 formal meetings or in confrontation with one another. As Kirk was escorted in, aides and secretaries that had bustled and=20 bowed were sent away with barely a glance, leaving the cavernous=20 office silent. He realized that the office had to be soundproofed=20 for security reasons, but had not expected such utter stillness =96=20 not even the ticking of an antique clock or soothing flow and slight=20 splash of water from the commonplace hydro-sculptures that seemed to=20 overrun every office. He was tempted to drop something feather- light to see if he could hear its impact upon the polished-stone=20 floor.=20=20 Sarek stepped in from a side door that appeared to lead to another=20 office. "I appreciate your coming," Sarek said. His cadence was=20 almost perfunctory, yet there seemed a bit of warmth under the=20 tightness of his voice. Kirk was surprised. From the stern tone of the `request' he had=20 assumed it had been an order. But he gave Sarek only a calm=20 expression. "It is good to see you again, sir." Sarek raised an eyebrow, the Vulcan equivalent of surprise. "Is it,=20 Captain?" He turned toward the window suddenly, his back to Kirk. Kirk hoped it was a rhetorical question. He had always respected=20 and admired this ambassador long before he realized who his son=20 was. He had thought the Vulcan had the mettle and determination to=20 take on anyone, and the savvy intelligence and courage to succeed.=20=20 But the journey to Babel had set them on a collision course, and he=20 couldn't help but view Sarek as someone to be careful of =96 a=20 sometimes ruthlessly-strict father crossed with a vengeful Klingon=20 fleet out to destroy the sometimes errant young captain. Kirk squelched a grin; he still couldn't help but like the man for=20 the good he'd done, but he was a bulldozer you didn't stand in the=20 way of. And Kirk's friendship with his son had immediately made the=20 captain feel vulnerable. He couldn't help but feel that Sarek held=20 the strings to their futures with scissors poised to snip them=20 should he find some logical reason. "Is my son on his way to his mother?" Sarek asked quietly, with=20 warmth that startled Kirk. "Yes," Kirk replied, feeling anxious now. An ominous feeling=20 started to press upon his lungs. He felt each breath =96 its length=20 and depth -- which distracted him momentarily before the fear set=20 in. Was Sarek ill again? Or was Amanda already starting to decline=20 so soon? Something unpleasant seemed to be pressing upon them. "That is for the best," Sarek said, his tone resigned, almost=20 dull. "It would not do to have him hear what I have to say."=20 Kirk felt anger that the father would assume he would necessarily=20 keep something from the son. He steeled himself for the wrath,=20 because he couldn't help but respond out of loyalty to his closest=20 friend. "I do not practice duplicity with him." The anger thrummed=20 in his tone, and the implied reference to Sarek's withholding his=20 early heart attacks from his wife was clear. Sarek turned and looked at Kirk in obvious surprise, his eyebrows=20 almost reaching his bangs. He stepped toward Kirk with an=20 unreadable expression. Kirk forced himself to hold his ground and=20 let the anger drain until his expression turned cold; his body=20 tightened with anxiety and readiness. Sarek's expression turned almost wistful. "Captain, I intended no=20 such duplicity, nor insult=85" he paused uncharacteristically. "This=20 is difficult for me=85" Kirk felt shock that Sarek would admit to any difficulty. His anger=20 transmuted into concern. "Sir, are you well?" Sarek glanced back again quickly, then away, but Kirk swore he saw=20 the ambassador's eyes crinkle as if from a smile. "Too well it=20 would seem." Kirk never cared for Sarek's tendency toward almost mocking=20 ambiguity, though this felt more self-deprecating, so Kirk stifled=20 his irritation and impatience and allowed Sarek his struggle. Sarek turned and stared Kirk in the eye. "I am glad you still have=20 your fire, Captain. You will need it. If you derive nothing else=20 from this meeting, let it be that I wish for you always to tell me=20 what you think. Sometimes I benefit greatly from what you might=20 characterize as `insubordination.'" Sarek sighed. "Sometimes I=20 need to hear what I'd rather not listen to and=85there are few who=20 will try." Kirk's eyebrows lifted again at this insight. Sarek respected his=20 opinion enough to forgo the usual deference expected toward him. At=20 least from Kirk. "I am honored, sir." "I think you hold me in too high regard," Sarek said. "I had=20 thought the journey to Babel would have divested you of such." He=20 looked off toward the paler, cooler sun of Earth and seemed almost=20 to shiver. Kirk was concerned; it seemed as if Sarek was procrastinating,=20 something he could never imagine of this man. He decided to give=20 him a gentle push. "I think I have diverted you from the issue we=20 were to speak of, sir." Sarek nodded. "Forgive my reticence." He paused yet again, so long=20 that Kirk was wondering if he would speak at all until Kirk would=20 have to ask. "It is something Vulcans do not speak of, Captain=85"=20 Sarek said quietly. Kirk was amused as well as suddenly anxious. He had heard that=20 before, in regard to a matter that was disconcerting enough with=20 this man's son. "One of many things," Kirk joked. But the humor=20 fell flat, squelched by the tightness of his voice. This man was=20 the last he would want to discuss sex with. And what did it have to=20 do with him? This thought sent a shiver through him. Speaking to=20 this man caused him such anxiety, even the thought of anything=20 more=85 No certainly not. He could not be thinking of=85 Sarek was watching him with the trademark glimmer of amusement in=20 his eyes. "Yes, this certainly will not be the most comfortable of=20 conversations." Sarek made a joke? Kirk own eyebrows rose at that and he felt=20 suddenly more at ease as he realized that no matter how=20 uncomfortable he was, Sarek had to feel as if skewered on a spit=20 above flaming coals. He realized that he might just be able to=20 handle this better, to help the ambassador through whatever he had=20 to say. Sarek still stood stiffly by his desk, though his face had=20 softened. Kirk still stood at the edge of the inner sanctum of the=20 office, as if ready to bolt. For once, Sarek seemed less than=20 competent to ease tensions. He started to remember Sarek's earlier references to his son, and=20 started to feel fear grip him. "Spock=85is not=85" He couldn't finish=20 the question about pon farr in front of Spock's own father, but=20 could at least keep the raging blush from his face, thankfully. Sarek's reaction was dramatic. Kirk saw a moment of fear, almost=20 panic, as his head whipped around, his searching eyes spearing=20 Kirk's. "No!" Kirk countered himself. "I would have noticed. He seemed=20 quite relaxed." But from Sarek's reaction, in fact the regular=20 emotional slips he was seeing just in the last minutes, he started=20 to wonder about the elder Vulcan. He was usually not so easily=20 read, except perhaps for his anger and his adoration of his wife.=20=20 But how would Sarek's Time affect Kirk? Amanda was just on the=20 other side of the city. Kirk's intense gaze was an obvious question=20 as he looked more closely at Sarek. Sarek met that question. "No, neither myself. But your mind has=20 intuited the area=85of concern=85 at least." He would swear he saw the=20 slightest blush. So it had something to do with Sarek, and something to do with sex,=20 and something to do with himself=85 Kirk felt his mouth go dry. "How=20 about a drink?" he asked. "How about a double?" Sarek deadpanned. Another joke from Sarek! Kirk would have been delighted if the=20 thought of why Sarek was joking didn't unnerve him so. Like humans,=20 he wondered if Vulcans joked to relieve tension during uncomfortable=20 situations. He had the feeling that this meeting would only get=20 more uncomfortable. They sat, and finished their first doubles. Kirk was amazed to see=20 Sarek drinking also, and he had poured himself a hefty saya, a=20 Vulcan intoxicant that rivaled Kirk's brandy in affect on a Vulcan=20 system. Sarek took a breath. "Have you heard of `The Way of the Warrior'"? Kirk almost swallowed his brandy down his windpipe. He knew the=20 vague reference used in lewd jokes about ships that carried only men=20 in the early days of warring. In fact, the reference went back to=20 the days of the Roman and Greek empires, likely earlier. There being=20 no women on the battlefields, the men turned to each other for their=20 carnal needs. He had heard that there was even the affect of habituation to=20 limited resources, as such on ships the size of the Enterprise.=20=20 Since there was a limited number of each sex, some hetero men and=20 women started to look more closely at their orientation (and likely=20 the reverse) and the possibilities for such among the limited=20 group. It was not such an foreign concept to him either, he had=20 experimented with his own gender when quite young, as many beings=20 did. Hell, he'd even checked out Spock every now and then, just for=20 curiosity's and variety's sake. Something he was less likely to=20 have done if there were unlimited females, he believed. He had not=20 pursued the possibility, though he had not decided against it=20 either. He had, in fact, put it on the back burner due to the=20 pressures of keeping up appearances rather than any judgments, and=20 of course, the fear of risking their friendship and destroying such=20 a successful command team had been a strong consideration. His mind started to wander through his minimal research of Vulcans=20 and his memories of reading about their many thousands of years of=20 warring. They had been warriors far longer than they had found=20 peace. Many called their peaceful state a thin veneer on an=20 exceedingly violent race. Their adversaries had argued that=20 trusting them so implicitly was like taking the stripes of a Bengal=20 tiger and expecting it then to `play nice'. It was an argument that=20 set you to thinking. Had the Vulcans found a stable solution to=20 their race's extinction? Or only a respite? He shook the=20 depressing theories from his head =96 it would not change that=20 people's fate. Some of the historical recounts of Vulcan savagery had made him=20 almost physically ill to the point that he had to stop reading at=20 times, not a common experience for a military man. His mind started=20 to combine that with the Darwinian Theory of survival of the fittest=20 and the affects of pon farr. Vulcans who practiced `The Way of the=20 Warrior' would have stood a much stronger chance of survival, those=20 males able to sate their needs with either gender would have a far=20 superior chance at survival, likely leading to a race of=85" He did=20 blush now, at the realization. He looked up at Sarek. Sarek must have somehow gleaned his conclusion. "Approximately=20 87.3% of Vulcans are bisexual," Sarek stated calmly. Kirk first felt shock, then asked, bemused, "Approximately?" He had=20 never known Sarek to estimate. Now Sarek looked amused, but only for a moment. "That rate changes=20 with every birth or death, and one's orientation, especially a=20 Vulcan's, is a private matter. Exactitude would be only momentary=20 and ever-changing, if one could establish the orientation of every=20 sexually-mature Vulcan." Kirk smiled in realization. "Of course." He looked back at Sarek=20 terribly curious, but couldn't ask the next question. He would swear Sarek very nearly smiled this time, "Yes, I am=20 bisexual. Much to my wife's chagrin. She has said that I would be=20 the last being she would have guessed `went both ways'." Kirk almost spit the last of the brandy he had downed, and couldn't=20 contain his laughter at that. He immediately understood exactly=20 what Amanda had meant, and that made it even funnier. Sarek was as=20 male as they came. Kirk couldn't help thinking of him as a=20 marauding bull on steroids at times. He laughed again before he=20 could contain his mirth. He couldn't believe he was drinking=20 doubles and laughing unabashedly with Sarek in his office. But=20 Sarek only looked more relaxed and almost appreciative of Kirk's=20 humanness at the moment. "It is good that I can at least humor you now." Sarek stood and=20 retrieved the two bottles of liquor, setting the brandy next to Kirk=20 and the saya next to his own and poured himself another double. "The=20 sense of humor might provide a salve for what I need to ask of you." Kirk agreed, and decided that now would be a good time for such, or=20 perhaps to distract himself from the fear of why Sarek thought they=20 might need more drink as well as a sense of humor. "What would the=20 president think should he happen by?" He knew they shared a long=20 balcony and often talked shop seated outside. He had decided that=20 they likely wandered back and forth between offices since the door=20 to it was wide open and he remembered seeing that the president's=20 was also open. Many of the pronouncements from the president, in=20 fact, were called "decisions from the balcony," implying Sarek's=20 hand in many of them. "He won't=85and he would understand." Kirk nearly froze at that. Even the president knew what Sarek had=20 yet to tell him. But Sarek then looked to the floor, as Spock would do when he=20 couldn't look someone in the eye. "I don't know what you've heard=20 of Vulcan sexual practices, other than your familiarity with pon=20 farr?" His question was tentative, almost anxious. Kirk looked to the floor as he also poured himself another=20 double. "This should be my last. I have yet to check in=85" Kirk=20 left off the somewhere, subtly implying he had somewhere to stay so=20 that it wouldn't sound as if he were hinting at spending his=20 vacation with Spock and his parents. After what he had heard so far,=20 he wasn't sure he wanted to. "I would be gratified if you would reconsider staying at the=20 embassy." Sarek said it rather quietly, as if awaiting Kirk's=20 refusal. "Perhaps after this meeting, we might feel differently," Kirk said a=20 bit defensively. "No matter what your decision, I wish you to stay at the embassy.=20=20 Your company would be appreciated=85by all." Kirk swallowed, a little confused by Sarek's graciousness in light=20 of the strangeness and discomfort of the meeting. "Perhaps I should fill in some of the blanks before you commit, but=20 you should feel free, always, to change your mind, on either=20 matter." Sarek cleared his throat, seeming uncharacteristically=20 nervous. "If you wanted to gain more of the upper hand, as they=20 say, with me and=85get to know me better=85this would certainly provide=20 ample opportunity." Now he would swear that Sarek had blushed,=20 though faintly. His eyes did not meet Kirk's. Kirk was very intrigued by the sound of that. It almost sounded as=20 if=85no surely not. God, what if Sarek were alluding to a sexual=20 liaison. But why? Kirk couldn't help but look Sarek over=20 discreetly. He was very attractive, for a male that is, and Kirk=20 felt his groin warming at the vague possibility. But with Sarek's=20 cup filled to overflowing in attractive attributes with his looks,=20 power, prestige, brilliance, and wealth, he could have almost anyone=20 that would consider a male, and probably many who hadn't, but=20 recognized the unusual opportunity to fulfill their curiosity at=85he=20 cleared that thought. "Vulcan sexuality involves as much mentally=85as physically=85" Sarek=20 began. Kirk sighed. He knew that much from learning about bonding and=20 seeing the effects between bonded partners. He had been fascinated=20 by the idea of that mental connection during sex, the incredible=20 sharing it must entail, to consider seducing an unbonded Vulcan.=20=20 But they were uncommon and rarely left Vulcan anyway. And Vulcans=20 did not partake of casual dalliances, did they? Of course, their curiosity drew them into more trouble than anything=20 else, and their planet allowed little experimentation and=20 investigation. He could imagine that more than a few might wander=20 toward further reaches and other species to quell such=20 inquisitiveness with frowned upon, if not, disallowed activities.=20 He had often heard boasts from those that claimed to have laid a=20 Vulcan, usually a male as they were viewed as the most difficult to=20 garner, with their biology necessitating a committed relationship.=20=20 He had met a few Vulcan females that had ventured from tradition=20 after losing a bondmate to accident or illness. There was enough=20 flexibility in the numbers of Vulcan males to females that they=20 could take some time to travel off-planet unbonded more often, even=20 choosing not to bond to another Vulcan male, though it was probably=20 strongly discouraged, he suspected. Vulcan males, however, had too much to lose for many to take such a=20 risk. And so, they were the gold medal of sexual conquest. And=20 Sarek was as high-ranking, well-known, and prestigious as they came;=20 a common fantasy partner even on the Enterprise. McCoy had=20 mentioned this once after the ship-wide psych scans. Kirk had also noticed once in a review of the holo-deck request=20 codings that Sarek's name came up in the commonly chosen subject=20 fields. He had always assumed that command crewmembers were testing=20 their diplomatic skills and familiarity with protocol against the=20 best, especially after seeing him aboard the Enterprise. Perhaps=20 some of the science contingent wanted to rub elbows and talk shop=20 with Sarek the physicist, renowned for his research before his=20 diplomatic endeavors. He remembered once seeing Sarek come into a bar and Kirk heard a man=20 at the next table rudely commenting, "I'd hump that Vulcan in a hot=20 minute!" The rest of the large table laughed and agreed heartily=20 and clanked glasses before another commented, "Like he'd let you=20 hump him; he'd hump you, fool!" The table laughed raucously and=20 Kirk left before he heard anymore, or, worse, responded. It was not=20 hard to notice how most women and many men responded to Ambassador=20 Sarek, even with those who didn't yet know his lofty position. Even=20 Kirk realized that he spent too much time wondering what Sarek=20 thought of him. Could it be partially a sexual draw? Sarek continued, "There is the sharing of selves mentally during the=85 act=85but there is also a more=85`savage' aspect at times. The act of=20 dominating one's mate is generally necessary for=85completion." Kirk had heard that Vulcans were more primal in their intercourse;=20 that it was where the bottled-up aggression was released. That had=20 been why the pon farr was so dangerous for the partner of the male=20 undergoing it. But the thought that a Vulcan male needed to=20 dominate to climax was startling. He wondered exactly what form=20 this domination had to take specifically. He tried not to imagine=20 Sarek sharing such with the diminutive Amanda, who was far less=20 sturdy and strong than a Vulcan woman, and was only getting frailer. Kirk was feeling lost still. "I'd like to ask some questions, but I=20 feel I could too easily=85" Sarek cut him off. "Ask anything you would like. You have every=20 right since I have immersed you into this unusual, and likely=20 uncomfortable, situation." Kirk swallowed and launched in. "Your wife is less strong than she=20 likely was when you first married her. Does this impinge on what we=20 are discussing?" Did Sarek need a partner he could be rough with?=20=20 The thought of the violence from this powerful Vulcan caused Kirk=20 more anxiety than the idea of sex with him, which surprised Kirk.=20=20 It still left the huge question unanswered =96 why would Sarek involve=20 him in something so personal? He realized that Sarek, with this seeming vulnerability, along with=20 his pragmatic discussion and attempt to open up, had put Kirk at=20 ease enough to view Sarek as a normal being like any other -- a=20 being who needed him and was having difficulty asking. It warmed=20 Kirk and allowed his natural liking, respect, and admiration of=20 Sarek to pave the way to his wanting to help. Though he had to=20 admit, it seemed a wild request if it were something oddly sexual=20 and invariably so personal to such a reserved and almost=20 unapproachable man. Sarek looked confused. "I appreciate your diplomatic reference to=20 my wife's aging, but she has little to do with this, other than=20 approving of you as a possible solution." Now Kirk was confused, and a little shocked that Sarek had=20 approached his wife in regard to Kirk and the still-vague sexual=20 issue, but realized Sarek would have likely been upfront with her=20 regarding his sexual needs and relations. Little was, or could be,=20 withheld between bondmates. Amanda was likely always aware of=20 Sarek's needs. "My domination of my wife has never been at issue. She has always=20 easily fulfilled her role for me to reach=85completion. The level of=20 domination necessary is relative to the level of submission. My=20 wife's lesser strength and agility over the years has merely=20 decreased the force I have needed to use. Our unions have required=20 less aggression and violence with time, not that I have ever hurt=20 her seriously." Kirk could not look at Sarek during the almost-halting description=20 of the requirements of dominating his wife for his climaxes. He=20 felt his breathing accelerate and his groin heating as lurid images=20 of Sarek mounting and taking his wife teased him. Sarek cleared his throat. "It is actually the mirror image of that=20 need that I am referring to." Kirk fought to keep the surprise off his face. "There is a=20 requirement of `submission'?" "Fully equal to that of dominance, yes." Try as he might, Kirk could not pull his eyebrows back down. Sarek relegated the discussion to the past once again, where he=20 seemed more comfortable. "When a young warrior began his service,=20 he was `apprenticed' by an experienced warrior. The experienced=20 taught the younger survival. The younger provided himself as the=20 salve for the experienced elder's `needs'. A sort of mentor-prot=E9g=E9=20 relationship." Sarek looked at Kirk, perhaps to see if he finally understood, then=20 continued, "Perhaps one of the most intriguing biological=20 differences between Vulcans and Humans, is that Vulcans have fully=20 retained the alpha distinction as in your pack animals. In packs,=20 every animal knows its place; each animal knows whether it is=20 submissive to or dominant over another. On Vulcan, we have many=20 clans, but are all of one pack." Sarek paused to glance at Kirk, then continued, "There are slight=20 signals of submission and dominance that are sent and received=20 between each and every Vulcan. I am submissive to or dominant over=20 every other Vulcan I meet. It may be slight but it is recognized,=20 respected, and constant among us. I am never equal to any other=20 Vulcan, only above or beneath. It is a biological imperative for=20 us." Kirk was fascinated, and curious to know and be able to detect the=20 cues between Vulcans as they meet. He always noticed Spock ducked=20 his head and lowered his eyes each time he met his father. He had=20 always assumed that had been some mixture of respect, insecurity,=20 and discomfort. He had to wonder if all Vulcans that would be=20 categorized as submissive to Sarek did that. He had also remembered some intense stare-offs between Sarek and=20 other Vulcans and how it often ended with one looking down and=20 seeming more cooperative suddenly. Was that the submissive giving=20 his acquiescence to the dominant? He remembered seeing Sarek in=20 some heated debates with elder Vulcans, especially T'Pau, and=20 remembered Sarek often ended up falling quiet and taking to his=20 knees in deference. Kirk had always thought it only custom dictated=20 by ceremony, but realized now the submissive and dominant scenario=20 made sense. Sarek was being put in his place, or putting others=20 there depending on this biological imperative. Sarek continued, "Your theory of `equal rights' has little meaning=20 among my species, except for that human saying 'what comes around=20 goes around'. In our savage past, any dominant could take what they=20 wanted =96 shelter, water, food, sexual congress, even children -- of=20 any submissive, at any time =96 the law of the jungle, as you humans=20 call it. It is a vestige of our past that we have an instinctual=20 need of recognition of both our dominant and our submissive natures,=20 as well as the telepathic enforcement of it, when necessary. I must=20 submit to one even as I dominate another." Sarek paused=20 momentarily, and breathed deeply. "If I hold one down to sate my=20 need, I am in return held down by another for their sating. So it=20 goes for every Vulcan." Kirk's head swam, as if he understood where Sarek was headed=20 unconsciously, but yet had to accept it. He remembered T'Pau=20 cutting Sarek short immediately with `You do not know your place!'=20 in which Sarek immediately sank to his knees and asked forgiveness.=20=20 Kirk had never thought that perhaps a greater `strength' had been=20 wielded as a threat. In fact, he had always wondered how the=20 matriarchy kept power when the males were larger and physically=20 stronger. The dangerous weapons often appearing at ceremonies had never been=20 used even as a threat, except with Spock at his `wedding'. But=20 Spock was half out of his mind and only half Vulcan and there were=20 humans that might have needed persuasion also. He had never thought=20 about the fact that there might be something that forced Sarek's=20 acquiescence, when he rarely yielded to anyone. Sarek continued, "It has been a difficult cultural difference for=20 humans to accept. But it is an instinctual need that builds until=20 resolved. I had little help, being one of the first to come here,=20 and not knowing your culture. We tend to imagine that another's=20 culture is similar to our own. It is difficult to adapt to what one=20 cannot predict. But when I tried to approach the more experienced=20 representatives, they had just thought I wanted guidance and=20 training. When I tried to imply that I needed to=85reciprocate=85their=85 help, they didn't understand. When I specifically referred to=20 relations of a sexual nature, they were flattered and intrigued at=20 what they thought was a proposed affair. "It was quite a frustrating experience. The only comparison I can=20 give you is if you tried to obtain sexual satisfaction and everyone=20 you meet only sees it as a platonic invitation. You can dominate=20 another by force, but you cannot force another to dominate you." Kirk had been held steadfast in the provocative story, glad that=20 Sarek had been too caught up in his own discomfort to notice Kirk's=20 pants sporting the beginnings of an erection at the thought of a=20 young ambassador Sarek looking for someone to dominate him sexually=20 and to have the frustration building as he tried to make clear his=20 needs. He had to wonder if Sarek would have been more successful if=20 he walked into one of the nastier representative's offices, dropped=20 his pants and bent over. But then discretion would be out the=20 window, along with his reputation as word would spread of the `easy'=20 Vulcan to fuck. Now, damn it, he had a full erection! He refocused=20 on Sarek's explanation, which was titillating in itself. Sarek looked directly into Kirk's eyes again. "It seems that I have=20 a singularly dominant personality that doesn't lend well to finding=20 those who can dominate me. I am in need of a forceful personality,=20 determined to succeed and with an uncommon strength. I have=20 someone on Vulcan for when I am there, and he sometimes visits=20 Earth. But I have lost the services of my Earthbound dominant as he=20 has grown too frail and placid to fully suffice." The image of Sarek sitting behind and to the right of the Federation=20 president flashed in Kirk's mind again. The Federation president=20 had been a big, broad-chested bear, as foreboding as Sarek. But in=20 the last five years, his elder status was beginning to take its=20 toll. He had to wonder=85 "I assume you would not reveal his name," Kirk said with a clever=20 smile. Sarek's expression softened. "Nor would I ever yours if you were to=20 agree to this." Kirk felt a little disappointment, he realized. Being known as a=20 dominant for none other than Sarek of Vulcan could only improve his=20 reputation =96 just the possibility that he could dominate him, and=20 the fact that male Vulcans were at the top of the list of most=20 sought after sexual conquests. He couldn't help imagining what=20 dominating Sarek might be like. But if he didn't even have the=20 courage to reach forth and touch this man now, how could he ever=20 hope to dominate him? "I am not sure I would be up to the task." Sarek stared at Kirk now; his breathing had accelerated noticeably. Kirk could not help but watch that broad chest pressing, with each=20 breath, into the rich royal colored brocade of his tunic. Sarek wet his lips, something Kirk had never seen. "I think it=20 would come easier for you than you could imagine. But I would=20 understand if you would prefer not to find out. I had to ask.=20=20 There are few, I believe, that could handle the request." His voice=20 had gone flat again, as if he believed now that Kirk would refuse=20 him. Kirk couldn't help but ask, "Was I your first choice?" "Since I first met you," Sarek said quietly, seemingly already=20 submitting as he offered far more information than was=20 required. "Your eyes held a glint in them that spoke of a sexual=20 appetite, and you seemed to want to best me there when I angered=20 you. I felt your desire to challenge my vigor, and perhaps my=85 audacity?"=20 Kirk couldn't help but smile. He had heard that Sarek was=20 perceptive, but the Vulcan seemed to hide it well, likely to his=20 advantage. "Your son=85" Kirk began, entering what could be a=20 minefield. "=85had thought I would ask you then. I was concerned about=20 complicating his relationship with you. Spock was trying to `fit=20 in'. I didn't want to point out so alien a need so early in your=20 relationship." Kirk smiled, biting back the reference to how sweet a thought and=20 action that had been, not to mention how bizarre that proposition=20 would have seemed then. While Ambassador Sarek had certainly been=20 supremely effective in his work, he had seemed cold and calculating,=20 at least before his heart attack and reconnection with his son. "And now?" Kirk asked. "My son would like his family drawn closer. He sees you as an=20 important element. Needless to say, Vulcan mores regarding sex are=20 very different from Human. He is as understanding of us beginning=20 this as I am about allowing it to end anytime you wish. He also=20 believes it would answer both our needs as well as smooth our=20 differences, with intimacy, allowing for greater understanding.=20=20 There are few that I would respect enough to ask this of." Kirk felt bewildered by the thought, imagining asking his cool first=20 officer if he'd mind if his captain screwed his father, with a=20 certain fervor and violence no less. "I guess," Kirk hazarded, "that an understanding of the specifics=20 might be in order to determine if I could be comfortable with it."=20=20 He had almost said compatible, and luckily caught himself. He had=20 never been sexually involved with a Vulcan, but surely Sarek had=20 ascertained the anatomical and physiological compatibility long=20 before seriously considering him. "The most difficult aspect for you, I would predict, would be=20 transforming our relationship into that of a sexual nature." Kirk smiled easily as he met Sarek's eyes directly for the first=20 time since the beginning of the frank discussion. "I was more=20 concerned with the more aggressive aspects, actually." Sarek paused momentarily to stare at Kirk, likely translating that=20 as Kirk had meant it =96 Sarek was quite sexually attractive and a=20 fascinating possibility for conquest. Then he looked away again in=20 seeming discomfort, which surprised Kirk. "As you might see on any=20 nature program =96 tracking or pursuit, often short-lived or symbolic=85 subduing, followed by a violent entrance=85and forced, rough=20 intercourse, perhaps some scratching, biting, and gripping the hair=20 for control and persuasion." That sounded more like rape, Kirk thought, but it had been a while=20 since he had seen a nature program. He felt his face heat at his=20 next question. "Sir, you have easily at least twice, if not three=20 times, my strength. How would I go about subduing you, if I were to=20 attempt this?" He was afraid he already knew the answer. Sarek watched him curiously. "I know from your logs that you have=20 met up with any number of beings stronger and more agile than=20 yourself, Captain. How did you subdue them, without causing=20 permanent or fatal damage, that is?" Kirk thought back on all of the bigger, stronger and wilier he had=20 beaten. He had surprised them, hit them with all of his force,=20 stunned them with phasers, kicked them where it counts, thrown sand=20 in their eyes, jumped them from behind, drugged them, tricked them,=20 pinned them, tied them up=85all of which sounded too violent. "I=20 can't think of a way that wouldn't be painful=85" Sarek looked amused. "Neither can I." Kirk swallowed. He had thought that would be the case. "Can I ask=20 how the others succeeded?" Sarek looked away again. "One had been an All-Federation boxer, a=20 human =96 he had little trouble. He would stop by more often than he=20 affected his plan so I didn't know when to expect it, at my=20 residence away from my family or at one of my offices. He would=20 present a sneak attack while I was focused on elsewhere, usually a=20 distraction he created." "He punched you?" "Numerous times," Sarek said.=20=20 Kirk was shocked at the thought of someone pummeling this dignified=20 Vulcan. "Until I was too confused, dizzy and insensible to defend myself.=20=20 The rest was `quick and to the point' as Humans are fond of saying." Kirk tried not to imagine "the rest", likely Sarek's clothes being=20 ripped from him, at least his pants, and the intercourse without=20 preparation and shivered at what must have been quite=20 painful. "Weren't there bruises, abrasions?" Tears and bleeding,=20 Kirk had thought but couldn't say. "Mostly gone by the morning after I entered a quick healing trance.=20=20 Amanda never asked as I seemed to be in a `much better mood' as she=20 put it by the time she saw them. She said I traded my discomforts=20 for the best though. The frustration can be quite intense and=85 debilitating." Sarek swallowed at that and seemed elsewhere again,=20 if only momentarily. Kirk began to realize that from the beginning of the meeting Sarek=20 had seemed "off", perhaps blunted; his intensity wasn't there; he=20 seemed almost indecisive and in a fog at times. He had also never=20 seen Sarek drink so much or so intently, as if trying to numb=20 himself? Kirk had to guess that it was this need that was getting=20 to him. Sarek continued. "Another stopped by occasionally and slipped a=20 drug into my drink that reduced my strength to less than a quarter,=20 and overpowered me. That can be effective, but sometimes=20 significant pain=85and humiliation=85helps to decrease the frustration=20 much more efficiently." "Another would sneak in and tie my hands behind my back before I=20 awakened. Much of a Vulcan's strength is upper body. My son can=20 apprise you of many of the techniques used to render a Vulcan=20 immobile or more manageable. They would also be quite useful with=20 Romulans in hand-to-hand combat, should that come up. Kirk pursed his lips. "Assuming the element of surprise, sounds=20 like hitting and wrestling are the common denominators." "I had thought this aspect might attract you," Sarek eyed him with=20 obvious amusement. "There have been several times I was sure you=20 wanted to strike me, and I am handing you a `free pass,' as you=20 would call it." Kirk smiled into his drink that he realized was gone -- the=20 equivalent of four drinks downed, and had started to feel a curious=20 thought of a little test of his abilities to step up to the plate.=20=20 He set the glass down. He also felt the excitement of impending=20 conquest and sexual release, which brought guilt also. He had=20 decided that he could hurt Sarek in order to enjoy such an unusual=20 opportunity. Perhaps his military nature also hid the desire to=20 rape and pillage underneath as it had for so many others. Sometimes though it felt good to accept and realize his baser=20 instincts =96 it felt more honest and truthful, almost a relief that=20 they might be given this small concession at least. But wanting and=20 hoping he could was not the same as doing. Could he purposefully=20 release the wolf and repress the lamb to supply what Sarek needed?=20=20 He had a feeling that any hesitation could give a man like Sarek too=20 much advantage; he would have to completely focused and selfish to=20 not falter, he decided. Kirk refocused on Sarek. "Enough of that, I can't arrive drunk to=20 see Amanda and Spock." "They would understand," Sarek said. "As I would." "I don't want to get your hopes up," Kirk said, a little sadly. "I would not be disappointed in you, Captain," Sarek said. "I would=20 not want you to feel obligated in any way, nor would I want you to=20 do this if you gained no benefit from it." Kirk smiled broadly at Sarek's implying that he would gain no=20 enjoyment in dominating as prescribed. "I am a sensualist, Sarek.=20=20 I didn't say I wouldn't enjoy the sex, and I am not an innocent -- I=20 could probably hit you a few times since I don't think I could=20 really hurt you much." "There is no deadline. Any answer would be acceptable. And you can=20 try any aspect, whether the sex or the violence, to any degree at=20 any time, except perhaps where others can see or hear. Ask any=20 questions you would like. I will avail myself in any way for you to=20 become more comfortable with the proposition." Kirk could not believe he had just been given a free pass for any=20 sexual act or violence upon Sarek by the man himself. There were so=20 many things he could be allowed to do to him right then and there =96=20 thrust his tongue into his mouth, request that he strip right there=20 for a detailed inspection, reach into his pants, slug him as he=20 wanted to do so many times on the Enterprise, or simply pull down=20 his pants, bend him over and=85 His mind had difficulty grasping the panoply of prospects, the many=20 temptations. But he realized that he could not take advantage=20 gratuitously, as tempting as they were, at that moment. Yes,=20 perhaps there was a sexual element to his concerns about what Sarek=20 thought of him, but he liked this man too much and felt some=20 disappointment and irritation at being curtailed by his own ethics=20 and morality. "No other restrictions?" he asked. "Learn where not to hit a Vulcan." The teasing tone again. "Already have that down, having worked so closely with Spock these=20 years." "Be careful of the artwork." Kirk laughed. "Figured that." "Do not be afraid to hurt me, plan to in fact, and expect a fight."=20=20 Sarek's eyes glittered at this last. "Effective domination requires=20 struggle, pain, and humiliation. It should leave its mark=20 physically and emotionally to provide the release needed by the=20 submissive. "Perhaps you should reach deep into your own darkness and find what=20 you would like to do to me, but might not want to consider. Reach=20 into that anger I released in you in the past, or present. Pay me=20 back for all of my misdeeds, as you might characterize them, in one=20 fell swoop. Find and marshal your dislikes of me and use them to be=20 my `enemy', to best me thoroughly. Sometimes an enemy makes the=20 best dominant. Surely you can resurrect enough of your irritations=20 with me to focus yourself and leave behind any tentativeness and=20 fears?" With that, Kirk's last reservations died. It was only a matter of=20 the how and when, and he had narrowed those down to a final few=20 moves which would leave fewer bruises. He watched Sarek's hand=20 shake as he laid his glass down and realized that, like this=20 Vulcan's procrastination with the telling, his acting on finding=20 another dominant had been too-long delayed. But he kept his=20 acceptance to himself so that he could attack in surprise, and soon. Sarek continued, "Perhaps this would be a good time to adjourn to=20 the embassy so you could reacquaint yourself with my wife." Kirk smiled at the little dig. "I would be glad to reacquaint=20 myself with the entire family." One biblically soon, he could not=20 help but think. Warmth alighted in Sarek's eyes at that. "You have yet to avail=20 yourself of much of our private residence at the embassy. There is=20 a private pool area with a Jacuzzi, sauna and steam room where my=20 wife prefers to spend her afternoons. There is also a bartender on=20 staff, should you like a pool drink, as my wife calls them." Kirk laughed. Something with an umbrella, he imagined, and decided=20 he might try a pi=F1a colada while basking in the sun. Likely the=20 Vulcans had a very large wind break and flexible heating about the=20 facilities so it would be warm enough, even for Vulcans. It may be=20 summer, but it was San Francisco, and the embassy sat near the beach=20 where strong winds buffeted and the fog that too often rolled in in=20 the evenings. Try as he might, Kirk could not keep his mind off his soon-to-be=20 vanquished Vulcan, even to the point of eyeing the goods to be=20 within reach =96 places he would never consider glancing on this regal=20 politico became regular pit-stops for his eyes =96 the groin, the=20 buttocks, the broad chest, even the spot between the neck and=20 shoulder where he intended on leaving teeth marks. It was as if her=20 were inspecting every curve of a horse he might buy. He tried to refocus so as not to give himself away, along with his=20 element of surprise. And if Amanda or Spock noticed his x-rated=20 scans of Sarek's body=85Jesus, that would be embarrassing. Excuse me=20 Spock while I eye your father's ass. Or, Amanda, you don't mind if=20 I cop a feel of your husband's package, do you? His plan was flawless, thanks to training by Spock after they made=20 contact with the Romulans and the frequency of contact with this=20 newly reintroduced hostile race began to escalate. He knew the=20 weaknesses of the Romulans, and therefore, the Vulcans. A=20 choreography of distraction and immobilization of the strong upper=20 body, and the positioning of his own weight should allow Kirk the=20 time and maneuverability to fulfill his and Sarek's purposes. He=20 only needed to be alone with Sarek, somewhere neither Amanda nor=20 Spock would discover. 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