Received: from [66.218.67.197] by n8.grp.scd.yahoo.com with NNFMP; 06 Jun 2004 00:11:19 -0000 X-Sender: campbratcher@psci.net X-Apparently-To: ASCEM-S@yahoogroups.com Received: (qmail 57475 invoked from network); 6 Jun 2004 00:11:17 -0000 Received: from unknown (66.218.66.218) by m4.grp.scd.yahoo.com with QMQP; 6 Jun 2004 00:11:17 -0000 Received: from unknown (HELO mailstore.psci.net) (63.65.184.2) by mta3.grp.scd.yahoo.com with SMTP; 6 Jun 2004 00:11:17 -0000 Received: from max (as4-d59-rp-psci.psci.net [63.92.109.155]) by mailstore.psci.net (8.12.2/8.12.2) with SMTP id i560B3QX012748 for ; Sat, 5 Jun 2004 19:11:03 -0500 Message-ID: <007d01c44b5a$d5c1bc40$9b6d5c3f@max> To: "ASCEM-S" X-Priority: 3 X-MSMail-Priority: Normal X-Mailer: Microsoft Outlook Express 6.00.2800.1158 X-MimeOLE: Produced By Microsoft MimeOLE V6.00.2800.1165 X-eGroups-Remote-IP: 63.65.184.2 From: "Keith & Jessica Bratcher" X-Yahoo-Profile: sileya MIME-Version: 1.0 Mailing-List: list ASCEM-S@yahoogroups.com; contact ASCEM-S-owner@yahoogroups.com Delivered-To: mailing list ASCEM-S@yahoogroups.com Precedence: bulk List-Unsubscribe: Date: Sat, 5 Jun 2004 19:11:36 -0500 Subject: [ASCEM-S] NEW: VOY C/P Disappeared, without a trace 1/9 R - NC17 Reply-To: "Keith & Jessica Bratcher" Content-Type: text/plain; charset=US-ASCII Content-Transfer-Encoding: 7bit X-ELNK-AV: 0 Title: Disappeared, without a trace 1/9 Author: Darksusie - February 04 Series: Voyager Pairing C/P P/K C/other Rating: R - NC17 Disclaimer: Voyager and her crew are the property of Paramount. Summary: Tom thinks about anniversaries and Tom Paris sat staring out at the stars, thinking about anniversaries. This month particularly held mixed feelings for him. Last week had been the anniversary of the crew coming together. Six years of heartache, hard work, friendship and love, especially friendship and love. Maybe not at the beginning but over the years they had all come together as a family. Yesterday had been the anniversary of Tom and Chakotay's first date. Four years ago, so much had happened since that day. Tom thought back to that first year on Voyager, when Chakotay could barely tolerate him, never mind find it in him to become a friend. Tom had baited him but had secretly admired him, admired his strength of character, his steadfastness, and his firm delicious ass, especially his ass. After the first year, the Commander had relaxed enough for them to become more than acquaintances and Tom had wooed him, not as a lover but as a friend. The odd game of pool, a meal here or there, until one day, four years ago Tom had built up enough courage to ask Chakotay on a date. Tom smiled to himself as he remembered the shock on the Commander's face but it was nothing like the shock on his own face when Chakotay accepted. It had been an enjoyable evening, a meal, a few drinks in Sandrine's and then the Commander had insisted on walking Tom to his cabin. He had joked that he always made sure his dates got home safe. At the door, Tom had turned to go in, not wanting to rush Chakotay but Tom had found himself quickly wrapped up in strong, capable arms and gently but seductively kissed. Tom allowed himself a small, sad smile at the memory. He couldn't allow himself to linger on those thoughts, even now after all this time, they still caused his heart to ache and his tears to flow. But those thoughts naturally led him to the upcoming anniversaries next week. In four days time it would be three years since his lover had disappeared. Lost in the Delta Quadrant, on one of the shuttles. Six weeks, six long, desperate weeks they had looked, searched everywhere, asked everyone. Tom had refused to give up, begged to keep on looking. The logs said disappeared, without a trace. Just a brief entry, it didn't tell the full story. Didn't say how all the crew had been in shock. The loss of any crewmember caused upset but when it was someone like the Commander, who everyone respected, then it affected everyone. Those few words didn't tell how Tom had lost weight, had drunk himself silly and had broken down at the helm every time a stray memory of Chakotay had come to him. The Captain had removed him from helm duty. The trouble was that just gave Tom time to think. A bad thing when all you could think about is what you have lost. It was one of those days, when everyone else was busy and Tom had time on his hands that he realised Chakotay had never said what his feelings were for Tom. The pilot became obsessed with the idea. He asked all their mutual friends if they thought Chakotay had loved him. In the end, after some counselling with the doctor and a long talk with the Captain, Tom came to the conclusion that though he had loved Chakotay, he would never know if Chakotay had loved him back. On the sad day that they resumed the journey home, Tom had to be sedated. All he'd got was one year of memories. And on the day of Chakotay's disappearance, one year later, Harry Kim had comforted him, helped him through the misery of the first anniversary. He had held him, soothed his sorrow and eventually kissed him. Since then it had been a hard and eventually rewarding two years. Harry had helped him over the grief, been patient and loving and slowly Tom had begun to return the love and next week they were to be married. Tom was happy, contented even but still held the loss of Chakotay close to him, though he never let Harry know how he sometimes yearned for the passionate, hard sex he'd had with his former lover. The lovemaking with Harry was good, but it was always gentle, with Tom doing the giving all the time. Harry had no interest in being on top and the idea of giving Tom a blowjob had only been mentioned once and refused with a look of disgust. The fact that Harry didn't mind being on the receiving end of said blow job hadn't escaped Tom's notice and as for rough, heart pounding sex, that was way out of the question. But some days when the shift had been long and tough, Tom craved to be fucked and fucked hard and the only man able to make him forget himself was Chakotay. Tom sighed, this maudlin thinking was getting him nowhere, he loved Harry and he would try to make him as happy as he could, he owed him that. Making his way to the Bridge, he took a few deep breaths to clear away the memories, smiled when he thought about the celebrations to come. Two years and three days after the romance began they would be official. Janeway had decided on the three days, as it didn't seem appropriate to hold a celebration on the anniversary of the day the Commander had disappeared. They had both agreed, though Harry did reluctantly, as he thought it would be romantic if they married on the date that they had first kissed. In a few days they would have two days of glorious leave on the Holodeck. Harry water skiing, Tom lounging and interspersed lots of gentle but passionate lovemaking. Even if he couldn't forget Chakotay, now was the time to put him in the past and concentrate on the future. Tom came out onto the Bridge just as the red alert sounded. "Mr Paris get to the helm quickly, there's a rift opening up, straight ahead. Slow to half impulse and keep her steady," Tuvok calmly stated the orders from Chakotay's old seat. Something Tom, after all this time, hadn't got used to. He still thought of Tuvok as in impostor when the Vulcan sat in that chair. "Readings Mr Kim," Janeway asked. "Not enough information at present, Captain," Kim answered. Then as the ship shuddered Harry quickly added, "there's a vehicle of some kind coming out of the rift." "Shields at full, Mr Ayala," Tuvok said as he moved over to join him at tactical. Suddenly the screen showed a small vessel, average size of a shuttle, gold in colour with a marking that looked like an eagle on the side. "Open communications Mr Kim," and Janeway began her usual speech to new friends or enemies, which ever the case may be. There was no reply. Just as Janeway got ready to repeat the speech, the screen lit up. Janeway stared at the screen as an audible gasp went around the bridge, watched with her peripheral vision as Harry Kim fainted and Tom go very pale and visibly begin to shake. Staring at them from the screen, dressed all in black, his hair rippling to his waist and wearing a large gold earring in his left ear, sat Chakotay. [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Yahoo! Domains - Claim yours for only $14.70 http://us.click.yahoo.com/Z1wmxD/DREIAA/yQLSAA/5x3olB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEM-S/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: ASCEM-S-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/ From ???@??? 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Summary: Chakotay is brought up to date with recent "Hello Kathryn," Chakotay smiled at Janeway, as though he had been away overnight. "Hello lover," he said in a deep, throaty voice, as he turned to Tom. "I hope we can soon make up for lost time." Janeway watched amazed as Tom fainted and Harry who had just recovered joined Tom on the floor in another dead faint. "Have I permission to come on board, Kathryn. It's been a while and I'll like to come home." "Bring your craft in to shuttle bay one and we'll meet you there." The channel closed and Janeway turned to Ayala. "Get a small security detail down there. Tuvok you're with me." She looked around her, at the stunned faces of her crew, at Paris and Kim, who were just standing up. "Someone, anyone, inform the doctor of our unexpected guest. I want all senior staff in the briefing room in 30 minutes. Lieutenant you have the bridge." When Tom began to argue that he should be there to meet Chakotay, Janeway raised her hand. "Look Tom, we don't know if he is the real Commander, he certainly doesn't act like him. He's changed not only in looks. I don't think the real Commander would have greeted us as casually as that man. Let's get him checked out and then discuss what we are going to do." Janeway looked from Tom to Harry, both looked a little green around the gills. When Chakotay stepped out of the shuttle, Janeway knew straightaway that there was something fundamentally different about this man who claimed to be her First Officer. Chakotay had always been a handsome, well built man, in an understated way. Now he looked like he had been working out, his chest was powerful, causing his shirt to strain, giving him a look of sheer strength. His hair and the earring gave him a roguish, half menacing look, reminding Janeway of an image from a pirate holonovel. He held himself with a determination and force she hadn't seen since his Maquis days and sexuality and charisma radiated from him. He'd never flaunted his looks, and apart from a few dalliances and Tom, he had kept himself to himself. But as he walked towards them, Janeway felt he was the most powerful, beautiful person she had ever seen. Then he smiled at her, a full smile with shining eyes and seductive dimples and then grabbed her and hugged her to him. Then holding her face he gave her a passionate kiss on the lips. Janeway was startled, startled and aroused. But her logic kicked in, the old Chakotay would never have dared to do that in front of other people, she wasn't too sure that he would even dare do it in private. "Commander," she thought she would keep it on an official level till she knew what the full story was. "I hope you don't mind if we get you checked out by the doctor. Then we would like to hear your story. The welcome home party will have to wait, I'm sure you understand." Janeway was a little nervous how he would take this but he instantly put her at ease with a little smile and a nod. Chakotay and the security team transported to sickbay as Tuvok and the Captain made their way back to the bridge Janeway cast a glance over her senior staff. Harry, Tom and B'Elanna looked shaken, Nelix was excited and nervous and dependable Tuvok, his usually calm self. "Would anyone like to comment on recent events?" Janeway looked at Tom. "If it's Chakotay, he's changed, not just in appearance but also his behaviour. I would proceed with caution Captain. I cannot imagine the Commander we know being so public with Mr Paris and so cavalier with you," Tuvok opened the discussion. Janeway nodded, "agreed." B'Elanna continued. "If it is Chakotay, how's he going to take the news of their marriage," she nodded towards Tom and Harry. "One step at a time, B'Elanna," Janeway looked at Tom. "Anything to add Tom?" "I'm sorry, I just don't know what to say. I'm stunned. I can't take it in, that Chakotay could really be alive." If Tom looked scared half to death, Harry looked petrified. They were interrupted by the doctor on the view screen. "Go ahead doctor, what have you found out?" "It's the Commander alright and it's our Commander from our timeline. But, there are some fundamental differences in his brain wave pattern, his memory and his personality." "Yes, we noticed some changes, can you be more specific doctor." "The commander appears to be having trouble with his memory, though that problem seems to be healing itself at the moment. He has only partial memory of his time on Voyager, most of these memories seem to be centred on Mr Paris. He is having difficulty remembering the recent past altogether. His testosterone levels are through the roof and preliminary tests show that this as been caused by some kind of treatment that was deliberately administered to him. More tests need to be done to ascertain fully what changes the Commander has gone through. So far he hasn't said much about where he has been, his memory of his time away from us seems to be eluding him. Personality wise, he's more relaxed, less formal, outgoing even, and very, how can I put this, sexual. Within 5 minutes he had my nurse positively flush with arousal and within another 5 minutes he was actively trying to seduce one of Ayala's men. Sorry," the Doctor gave a sympathetic glance at Tom. The pilot just shrugged, trying to contain all the confusing thoughts that were running through his mind. "I'll need to do more tests to find out fully what the changes entail and the consequences," the doctor added. "Well it's good news that he's back, we'll deal with any problems after he's told us what happened to him," the Captain stood to make her way to sickbay. "Captain," the doctor interrupted. "It's not quite that simple, the Commander says he has only been away 3 months, when I informed him it had been 3 years, I had to sedate him." Janeway turned her head at a gasp to her right. Tom was shaking. "What's the matter Tom?" The Captain walked over to Tom and put a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "Don't you see, he'll think I've betrayed him, betrayed him again. He thinks he's been away twelve week and he comes back and I'm ready to marry another man. What's he going to thing, what am I going to say?" The Captain squeezed his shoulder. "It's not twelve weeks, Tom it's been 3 years, don't forget that. You deserve happiness as much as anybody else. I'm sure when things settle Chakotay will understand that." Tom turned to Harry and reached for his hand. Harry's attention was all on Tom. "Tom, please tell me this doesn't make a difference to us, please?" Harry's voice was shaking. "No Harry, this makes no difference, I love you, this won't change a thing." [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Make a clean sweep of pop-up ads. Yahoo! Companion Toolbar. Now with Pop-Up Blocker. 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Summary: The captain breaks the bad news to the The captain breaks the bad news to the Commander "Doctor, transport yourself and the Commander to visitor's room 10a, I'll meet you there. B'Elanna you're with me, he may need a friend. Tom I'll explain the situation regarding you and Harry. If you want a private word with him you can see him later when we know how he handles the news. I'll speak to you when I've finished. Everyone dismissed." Janeway and B'Elanna found Chakotay just waking up. His shirt had been removed and both women looked over the glistening, well-muscled chest, took in the long, flowing hair and the sensuous mouth. He opened his eyes, and gave both women a slow sensual smile, locking his eyes, first with the Captain then with his old friend. He slowly arose from the bed, languidly stretching his muscles. "Let's talk in the other room, we'll be more comfortable," he smiled again and moved into the other room, not attempting to get dressed. Both women found it unsettling but B'Elanna noted that the Captain hadn't asked him to put his shirt on. "I don't know where to begin, I'm still in shock that I have found you. My memory of events is a bit confused, the doctor says my memories have been tampered with." Chakotay paused and stretched out his muscles again, causing B'Elanna and Janeway to glance away, scared of their reaction. "I vaguely remember leaving Voyager and the shuttle getting in trouble. Some people came to help me and then my memory blanks out for. I recall being with people and belonging to someone, but I can't remember who. Then something happened and I ended up drifting in space. About a week ago memories of Voyager started to come back to me and then I received a message from someone I had known on the planet giving me information on how to open a wormhole and get back to Voyager. I can't tell you much else because everything is confused in my head. I remember Tom, but then another face comes into my head and replaces Tom. I see Voyager and then another place, somewhere else I call home takes over. "Don't worry Chakotay, the doctor says you should recover your memory or most of it, through time. The important thing is you are back with us and well." Janeway reached over and took his hand, squeezing it with relief and affection. "Chakotay, you know it's been three years, next week, since you were lost, you accept that don't you?" He nodded to the Captain in reply. "Things have changed a little, things have moved on, you must understand that". She watched his face but it stayed composed, unemotional. "Is this about Tom, Captain? I've noticed he's not actually rushed to see me." Janeway caught a flicker of emotion go across his face, before he gathered himself again. "I'm afraid that was my idea, he was devastated went you went missing. He had to be sedated when we moved off. Please understand he mourned for a year." The captain held his gaze, willing him to understand. "Who is it?" his face remained calm, friendly, unsurprised. 'Well this is going better than I thought,' Janeway mused to herself. Taking a deep breath, "Harry" and before Chakotay could comment she rushed on. "He comforted him and the relationship developed slowly. He's made Tom happy again. Please don't begrudge him that. They plan to marry next week." Something flashed across the Commander's face but then the dependable smile was back. "Captain, I don't resent Tom anything. I have the deepest regard for him and always will but I can see it's over, there's no blame, no fault. Now if you don't mind I would like to be alone for a while. I need time to put my thoughts in order, three years gone and Tom ready to marry, it will take a little time to adjust. It wasn't quite what I was expecting when I saw Voyager again." "Chakotay you rest and we'll discuss the next steps tomorrow. It's good to have you back, everyone has missed you so much." As she was leaving, Janeway turned. "Tom would like to visit later, to clear things up, would that be OK by you?" Chakotay took a minute to answer, "I'd like that, yes I'd like that very much." [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Yahoo! Domains - Claim yours for only $14.70 http://us.click.yahoo.com/Z1wmxD/DREIAA/yQLSAA/5x3olB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEM-S/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: ASCEM-S-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/ From ???@??? 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Summary: Tom and Chakotay discuss the way forward Tom made his way to the Commander's cabin. He was nervous, but the Captain had explained the philosophical approach Chakotay had taken, not blaming anyone. But even if his ex-lover didn't hold it against Tom, he wasn't sure how he would feel when he was alone with him. He still had feelings for him, memories lingered. Harry had wanted to come along but Tom had felt that he owed Chakotay a one-to-one meeting. Pressing the chime, he breathed deeply, steadying himself, and then he heard the familiar voice shouting come in. The door swished open. Chakotay was sat on the couch, still half undressed. Tom glanced at the body he knew so well and a bead of perspiration formed on his upper lip. His first reaction was to reach out and touch the magnificent body in front of him but he resisted. Tom had control of his hands but not much else. The sight of the man that had pounded into his body aroused him instantly. He so wanted those arms around him again. Tom looked away, bringing his mind, if not his body back to the reason he was here. "Chakotay, I am so glad you're back. You don't know how much I've missed you." Tom took a deep breath. Chakotay didn't respond "The Captain told you about me and Harry. I waited for a year Chakotay. But the main thing is your back with us and you are safe and well." The Commander just looked at Tom and gave him a charismatic smile. Tom was getting nervous, rambling, as Chakotay didn't say a word. "Please Chakotay, we can still be friends, good friends." Chakotay stood, the smile disappearing from his face. "Have you come to suck or fuck, Paris?" Chakotay hungrily swept his eyes over the pilot's body. His gaze rested on Tom's groin while he slowly licked his lips. "Please Chakotay, you know how it is. Harry loves me, I can't hurt him. Things have changed. Please don't make this any more difficult than it is. If it wasn't for Harry I wouldn't have made it after you disappeared." Tom gulped, as his nerves started to get the better of him. Chakotay stepped forward, while Tom stepped back, hitting the wall. Chakotay leant forward, his warm breath on Tom's ear. "It's not difficult, Paris," Chakotay's hand rubbed Tom's hip, bringing their bodies into contact. His voice was low and seductive. "It's not difficult at all. I only want to see you if you've come to fuck or suck. We will never be friends, we were never friends. You were just a convenient fuck Paris, a good one, I'll give you that much." Chakotay rubbed his thumb over the pilot's obvious erection. Though Chakotay wasn't acting like the lover and friend he remembered, even though he was insulting him and treating him like a whore, Tom couldn't help be aroused by the nearness of his former lover. Tom's body had reacted automatically. As Chakotay again rubbed over the pilot's hard cock, Tom took a ragged breath and pushed him away and made for the door. "I'm sure you're angry and confused now, Chakotay but we'll talk tomorrow, you'll feel better then," and Tom rushed out heading towards the observation lounge. He couldn't face Harry just yet. He had to get his thoughts and emotions, and if he was honest, his arousal in check. He was close to tears. Chakotay had acted like a different person, openly sensual, where before he had been a private person, cold and cruel where he had been a warm and compassionate man. Tom felt crushed and hurt, torn between a past love and a present love. How could he say he was just a fuck? Tom's eyes filled again. How could he say that? They'd had a good relationship, different to what he had with Harry, but it had been close and affectionate, or so Tom had thought at the time. He needed Harry, he wanted his arms around him, telling Tom he loved him and then maybe he could forget what had just happened. He couldn't tell Harry about Chakotay's attitude and words. Harry was worried enough no need to add to it. Chakotay had been given a few days to acclimatise, for the crew to get used to his return and to this end he strolled through the ship. He hadn't changed his appearance and the Captain hadn't called him on it, yet. He entered the elevator, heading towards the bridge. "Good morning Harry," Chakotay was wearing his now customary black and Harry couldn't help but stare at the long hair, the shirt moulded to his chest, the trousers that left nothing to the imagination. "Good morning Commander," Harry nodded, appreciating the more outgoing version of the First Officer. "Chakotay, we're friends aren't we. You're looking very well Harry, in fact you are looking fantastic." Harry looked for any sense of sarcasm, but saw none. "Thank you and its good to have you back." Chakotay lay a hand on Harry's arm "It's so good to be back Harry," Chakotay said as he squeezed the Ensign's arm, while slowly rubbing his thumb up and down. The elevator opened as Harry broke away, confused by Chakotay's closeness. The Commander had always acted as though Harry had been a threat for Tom's affection and now he was acting as though he was his best friend or prospective lover. Harry and Tom met for lunch and Harry told the pilot about his meeting in the elevator and of how Chakotay had been extra friendly. He didn't mention how he had touched him sensually and he especially didn't mention his reaction to it. In fact he'd began to doubt that it had happened, putting his flight of fancy down to his relief at Chakotay's compliance to the coming marriage and his new found friendliness. Buoyed up by what Harry had told him and the thought that with rest Chakotay might be more like his old self he once again made his way to the Commander's cabin. Tom's mouth was dry, his stomach tense as he tried not to think about the last time they had talked. Tom had sensed a menace to Chakotay that hadn't been there before his disappearance. As Tom approached the cabin doors they slid open. Tom looked at them startled but didn't get a chance to think on the matter further. Chakotay stood by the replicator in tight black jeans, and a T-shirt that showed off his powerful chest and strong arms. Tom swallowed with difficulty, suddenly finding it hard to breath. Just as the pilot decided that he had made a mistake and turned to go, Chakotay turned and gave him a mega watt smile. "I'm glad you dropped by, Tom, gives us a chance to talk, please sit," he gestured to the couch. "I'll get us something to drink." Tom made his way to sit down, hopeful that the unpleasantness of earlier was over and they could again get on a firm footing. Chakotay handed him a drink and sat down beside him, close but not touching. Paris gave him a tentative smile and the Commander returned it. "Look Tom, I realise you've moved on but it's hard for me to know that soon you will be married to another man. I just need time to adjust to the idea, but I give you my blessing and wish you happiness." Tom took a deep breath to release the tension he had been holding in. "Thanks, it means the world to me that we can still be friends." Chakotay placed his drink on the table. "I would like one favour before you get married," Chakotay paused and looked straight into clear, blue eyes, holding the gaze. "Anything, you know I'll do anything to make you feel better about this situation," Tom said earnestly. Chakotay leaned over and took Tom's glass out of his hand. Reaching up to take Tom's chin, "please let me kiss you one last time?" Tom nodded, unable to speak, the sudden tension in the air making him nervous. Chakotay moved forward and tenderly kissed him on the lips. Tom felt lost in the sensation, taken back to sweeter times. Those lips were so familiar, so arousing. Just as the pilot swept his tongue over his former lover's lips, Chakotay broke away and stood up. Tom sat dazed for a minute. He realised he shouldn't have done it. A purely innocent kiss but it had stirred up too many memories and feelings best left buried. Tom rose, confused and a little shaky. As he headed for the door the Commander turned. Tom stopped abruptly when the door didn't open. "Where are you going in such a rush, Paris?" 'Oh fuck, not that Paris shit again,' Tom thought as he began to perspire at the tone of Chakotay's voice. "Look, I must get back, Harry will be wondering were I am," he set off towards the door, hoping this time it would open. The next minute his breath was leaving his body as he was slammed into the wall. "You're not going anywhere yet, not until we've had our little talk. Fuck Mr Kim, he can wait." Tom glanced at Chakotay's eyes, they were black, glazed and had a manic look to them. This wasn't the Chakotay he knew but it was the Chakotay he knew from yesterday and this Chakotay frightened him. "Please let me go," Tom tried to struggle from his grip but Chakotay tightened his hold on the pilot's forearms. He leant in closer to whisper in Tom's ear, rubbing his hard cock against Tom's groin. Despite himself, Tom couldn't stop a groan escaping from his lips and his body instinctively responded to the Commander leaning forward, kissing his ear and grinding himself into Tom. "I always knew you wanted to fuck him. All the time you were with me, I could see you watching him, wanting him. Is that who you thought about, you little slut, when I was making love to you?" Chakotay's thrusts were getting harder and even though Tom was shit scared he was as hard as hell. He could hardly manage to think but he managed to stutter, "you know that's a lie, I wanted you, I only thought about you." He couldn't get another word out as Chakotay pushed his tongue into Tom's mouth and grabbed his hips. With one powerful thrust and a low growl, Chakotay came and Tom followed. There was only the sound of heavy breathing as they both fought for control of themselves. Again Chakotay took Tom's chin in his hand and lovingly placed a kiss on his lips. "I promise you one thing Paris, if you marry Harry Kim I will kill him, now get out of my sight you little slut." He pressed the release button on his door and let Tom out. [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Make a clean sweep of pop-up ads. Yahoo! Companion Toolbar. Now with Pop-Up Blocker. 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Summary: Chakotay offers to help Harry Kim Tom staggered to his cabin, called for a privacy lock and sank to his knees weeping. He felt cheap and dirty. Not only had he let Chakotay use him, he'd cheated on Harry. He felt frightened and not only of the Commander's threats but also of the effect Chakotay was having on him and his life. There must be something seriously wrong with the Commander, he wasn't acting anything like the man he once knew. Getting a shower he tried to put what had happened to him in perspective. He hadn't technically been unfaithful but Harry would be very hurt if he knew about what had happened between the Chakotay and Tom. Harry was very insecure where the Commander was concerned, knowing that if he hadn't disappeared Harry wouldn't have stood a chance with Tom. As for the threat of killing Harry, he would discuss this with the Captain and Tuvok as soon as he could, the personality changes he would discuss with the doctor. Heading for Sandrine's, Tom tried to put things to the back of his mind. He would meet with Harry, play some pool, have a few drinks, and then back to Harry's for some sweet, slow loving. That should put thinks back on an even keel for a while. The first thing he saw when he entered the bar was the Commander sat in a booth. Chakotay looked up and caught Tom's eye, then slowly and deliberately leant forward and kissed Tabor on the lips. Tom watched as the Commander's hand slowly made its way up the ensign's shirt then stopped as it slowly rubbed over his nipple. Tom swallowed hard, unable to turn away. Nobody else had noticed and it was only when Harry called that he was able to drag himself away from the scene in front of him. All the unsettling feelings were back. But uppermost was jealousy. Chakotay was his lover, only his. Up until their affair Chakotay had never been with a man. Tom was his first and only one. Tom shook his head, he was getting confused, Chakotay had been Tom's lover but not any more. He glanced back at the booth, both of them sipping their drinks like nothing had happened. Gods, he felt like he was going crazy. Turning back to Harry he started the game but his heart wasn't in it. He leant over to Harry, "let's go, I want us to be alone." Harry was eager too, so they said their goodnights and headed to the door. Tom had one last glance at the booth but they were both gone. Walking back through the quiet corridors Tom squeezed Harry's hand affectionately. Just as they turned the corner to Harry's cabin they were stopped in their tracks. Leaning on Tabor's door was the ensign and the Commander in an intimate embrace, oblivious to their surroundings. Tabor's hands were all over the Commander's back, pulling him in closer and Chakotay's hands were busy massaging Tabor's ass. Harry looked at Tom, amazement and amusement in his eyes. Tom grabbed Harry's hand and pulled him towards the cabin. "Goodnight Tabor, Goodnight Chakotay," Harry shouted just as Tom was entering the cabin. "What the fuck did you do that for?" Tom glared at Harry, the tension making him short tempered. "Calm down, I just wanted them to know we'd seen them, that's all. Can you believe Captain Maquis and the young Bajoran. What will the crew make of this new development?" Harry unaware of Tom's silence continued to prattle on. "Well at least he's not losing any sleep over you," with this Harry grabbed Tom and kissed him soundly. Tom pulled away and made for the shower. As soon as the door closed he let the tears fall. He loved Harry so why was he so upset about Chakotay, especially after the way he had treated him earlier. But every time he thought about his ex-lover and Tabor his heart lurched. He looked in the mirror and gave himself a serious talking to. Harry was the man he loved. Chakotay was turning into a manic psychopath. Harry was the man for him. He would see the Captain in the morning, she would sort things out. Harry was the one who could make him happy. Climbing into bed, Tom took Harry into his arms kissing him hard. Making his way down Harry's body, he teased the hard cock with his tongue. Hearing Harry moan he sucked harder. Doing all the things he knew Harry liked he brought him off quickly and then turned over. He needed to think, with all the thoughts going around in his head there was no way he could maintain an erection and Harry would start asking questions. Harry snaked his arm around Tom to start rubbing him, "OK Tom, your turn." "Sorry Harry, I'm just too tired tonight, let's just cuddle." Harry was worried, Tom was never too tired for lovemaking. Was he making excuses because the Commander was back? All the old insecurities came rushing back. Both of them lay, back-to-back, unable to sleep, both awake for different reasons, but both thinking about the same man. Next day Harry was making his way to the bridge when Chakotay shouted for him to hold the turbo lift. Harry felt unsettled stood next to the Commander. "Harry you're a very lucky man. Congratulations on the wedding. No hard feelings." He reached out and shook his hand. He called for the lift to halt. Then slowly he took Harry's face in his hands and leant over and kissed him. Harry resisted, as much as he could, but the Commander was strong and Harry despite himself was enjoying the kiss. Chakotay pulled away. "You know Harry, you can always come to me if Tom can't satisfy all your needs." Chakotay again leaned in closer, "I could fuck you till you didn't know what your name was." Turning to the front he called, "deck 6." Chakotay got out at the next floor, leaving the ensign shaking. By the time Harry had got to the bridge he had just about pulled himself together, but not quite. Tom turned when the doors opened and smiled at the ensign. Straight away he knew that something was wrong, but it would have to wait till later to find out. When the Captain called Tom in to her office he told her about Chakotay threatening to kill Harry, told her that Chakotay had come onto him. He omitted to tell her about the incident, as he called it. Tom wasn't surprised when she said she wasn't going to confront Chakotay, Tom's argument had sounded weak even to his own ears. But he was surprised when she asked Tom if they wouldn't mind postponing the wedding till thinks settled down. She then advised Tom not to tell Harry about the threat till she had a discussion with the Commander and also with Tuvok. She asked Tom if he had discussed events with Harry but Tom explained that he was little embarrassed about his reaction to Chakotay, that he still had feelings for him and he couldn't tell Harry that. In fact they hadn't spoken much about Chakotay's return at all. Janeway reassured Tom that both herself and Tuvok would keep an eye on the Commander and if anything disturbing happened they would act on it. After dinner, Tom suggested Sandrine's, Harry had been tense but insisted he was just a little tired. They both relaxed after a couple of games of pool and then joined Greg and Geron in one of the booths. They were having a good laugh when Greg's face turned serious, showing his anger. "What's the matter Greg?" Tom turned to see what Ayala was glaring at. Chakotay was leant at the bar, all in black as usual, with the Delaney twins hanging onto his arms and on his every word. The Commander was lapping it up. Ayala's voice was nearly a growl. "I don't know what the bastard's playing at. He's gone from celibate priest, except for you," he nodded at Tom, "to being the easiest lay on the ship." Tom turned back at this, "oh come on, he's not been back that long." "Yeah and in that time, he's slept with Nicolletti, Wilders, seduced Tabor, and that's what I'm worried about. You know how vulnerable Tabor is and Chakotay's just going to use him and break his heart. I've already seen him crying. I can't believe what the Commander is doing and nobody can see it. Everybody's taken in with his charm, they can't see how different he is." "I can Greg." Tom was going to tell him about some of the things he had said, though not the personal ones, when Greg interrupted. "Oh fuck, he's coming over." Ayala looked down. "Evening Tom. Greg." Chakotay's eyes lingered on Harry, "How's things Harry?" and gave him his usual dazzling smile. "Geron it's good to see you again, Greg must be treating you well". Geron looked up into the dark sparkling eyes. Geron had always admired the Commander, in fact it was more like hero worship. Greg took one look at Geron's adoration and grabbed his hand. "Goodnight," he nodded at Harry and Tom and pulled Geron away. "You don't mind if I join you?" and without waiting for an answer the Commander sat down. "So not long to go till the big day," and a genuine smile seemed to reach Chakotay's eyes. Tom was getting more and more confused. He hadn't discussed the postponement with Harry, he was waiting till they were alone tonight. He wasn't looking forward to the discussion, Harry was not confident about the relationship at the best of times. Before either Harry or Tom could respond Tabor slipped in beside Chakotay. They made small talk and the conversation seemed to be going well. After a while Tom noticed the atmosphere change. He watched as Chakotay began rubbing his hand up and down the ensign's thigh. Tom was appalled, jealous, angry, and ready to cry. He was just going to say something when Chakotay turned to Tabor, and leant in for a long hard kiss. Tom stood up, scared of the jealous rage that was building up inside, when he glanced down. Chakotay's hand was now rubbing Tabor's obvious erection, slowly while Tabor moaned and opened his legs for more contact. "You know Chakotay I just don't know who you are any more." Tom managed to get out but the couple just ignored him. [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Make a clean sweep of pop-up ads. Yahoo! Companion Toolbar. Now with Pop-Up Blocker. Get it for free! http://us.click.yahoo.com/L5YrjA/eSIIAA/yQLSAA/5x3olB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEM-S/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: ASCEM-S-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/ From ???@??? 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Summary: Tom becomes jealous but he's not quite sure Back in Harry's cabin, Tom tried to make light of what they had just witnessed. He assured Harry that it hadn't bothered him, and that he was happy that Chakotay had found someone else. Eventually Tom got around to telling Harry that the Captain thought that a two-week postponement to the wedding would be a good idea, giving Chakotay time to settle down. Harry looked a little upset, grumbled a bit but he bought the excuse and Tom moved him towards the bedroom. Hopefully a good session of lovemaking would sort things out. But after kissing, Harry turned over claiming exhaustion. Tom lay awake again and gave a big sigh, thinking, 'my fucking love life's quickly going down the toilet.' Wide awake and staring at the ceiling, he thought over the events since Chakotay's return. Chakotay had been acting as though he was deranged, but only in front of Tom and even though he had been objectionable, Tom's uppermost emotions were jealousy and need. Even now, after all the unpleasantness, all Tom wanted to do was rush to the Commander's cabin and beg him to fuck him and fuck him hard. At this moment in time Harry didn't matter. He just wanted Chakotay to tell him he wanted him and only him and then make him scream with pleasure. Slowly and quietly, so as not to wake Harry, Tom crept out of bed and into the bathroom. "Computer location of Commander Chakotay." "Commander Chakotay is in his quarters." "Is the Commander alone?" "Negative" Tom swallowed, "Who is in the Commander's quarters?" "Commander Chakotay and Ensign Tabor." "Fuck, fuck, fuck," Tom muttered. The thought of Chakotay and Tabor in bed, the thought of Chakotay doing to Tabor what he wanted Chakotay to do to him just made him burn with anger and betrayal and any thought of arousal quickly disappeared. Next morning, the lift doors were about to close, when Chakotay stopped them and stepped in. "Morning Tom, would you like to join me for breakfast?" Chakotay looked at Tom with an enigmatic smile touching his lips. "What no Tabor hanging on your arm, this morning?" Tom snapped unable to keep the anger from his voice. "Afraid not, unfortunately, he's sulking. I let slip what a good kisser Harry is and the green eyed monster made an appearance." Tom stared at Chakotay, "What do you mean by that?" He grabbed the Commander's shoulder, shaking him. "When have you kissed Harry?" "Don't tell me good, old, honest Harry's not told you of our little interlude yesterday. Very uplifting, for Harry anyway. If you know what I mean." The lift arrived at the Bridge but Chakotay kept the doors closed. "You'll have to excuse me now the Captain needs to see me about my future role on Voyager. With some luck she'll put me in charge of crew discipline, it's about time I got to put you in your place." The Commander leant in close, "and I think that place is over my knee, getting the spanking you deserve," and with a smile he set off for his meeting. Harry looked up as Tom entered the bridge but the pilot avoided eye contact. He'd be having words with the ensign later. He was mad, very mad but he wasn't sure if it was because Harry had kept something from him, just what was Harry doing kissing the commander, or because Harry had kissed Chakotay, his Chakotay. It would be a long time till lunchtime. He could wait and in the meantime his anger was building. When his relief came, Tom grabbed Harry and dragged him back to Tom's cabin. As soon as the doors shut, Tom turned to his lover. "OK Harry, anything you'd like to tell me?" Harry stared at him baffled, "no I don't think so." "Oh, you don't want to mention your little scene with Chakotay, where you swapped spit or do you usually go around kissing other men behind my back." Tom's voice was getting quieter as his temper built up. "Come on share it with me, did you enjoy it. He's a good kisser, I should know." Tom stepped nearer, his voice even softer. "Did he get you hard Harry, come on you can share it with me, after all, I'm only the man you're going to marry." Tom was now only inches away from Harry. Harry gulped nervously, he had never seen Tom this angry. "It's not what you think, it was Chakotay, he just grabbed me. It was him who kissed me. I tried to get away. I didn't tell you because I didn't want to upset you. Please Tom." The thought that Chakotay wanted Harry, just inflamed Tom further. He grabbed hold of Harry's arm and shook him. "Did you like it, he said you were hard and willing," Tom shouted in his face. Tom was getting confused. He was jealous of Harry. He was jealous of Chakotay. He was as mad as hell at them both. He needed a release for all his pent up emotion. He grabbed Harry and kissed him hard. "You are mine, only mine, don't forget that," he whispered at the same time undoing Harry's trousers. Before Harry had gathered his thoughts, Tom had slicked his fingers, quickly prepared him and was now entering him with determination. It was quick, hard, furious and when Tom saw the tearful face of his lover he realised how much he had lost it. "Oh gods I'm sorry Harry, I'm so sorry. I just don't want to lose you. I was so jealous." He gathered the shaking ensign into his arms. But Tom knew deep down that he had taken him in anger and the anger was because Chakotay had wanted Harry. Next morning things were strained between Harry and Tom. The ensign felt guilty because he had kissed the commander and enjoyed it and the pilot felt guilty because he had taken his rage out on Harry and not Chakotay. Just as they were getting off shift for lunch, Tom grabbed Harry's arm. "We can't let this come between us, we have too much to lose. I'm going to see the bastard right now and have this out with him, tell him to leave us both alone." Harry mutely nodded, the feeling that everything was spiralling out of control filling him with dread. Tom marched up to the Commander's cabin, tired with all the games his ex-lover was playing. Chakotay was toying with people's lives and he didn't seem to care. Pressing the chime, Tom waited, too angry to be scared of Chakotay's reaction. It took awhile and when the door opened Chakotay was stood wrapped only in a towel. Tom swallowed, avoiding looking at the Commander's body. "I need to talk with you, what the fuck do..." Before Tom had finished the sentence, Tabor came out of the bedroom fastening up his uniform. Tom felt betrayed. When Chakotay had returned he'd expected him to be upset, a little lovelorn not the horny, unfeeling bastard he'd turned out to be. Tabor leant over and kissed Chakotay while the Commander squeezed the Bajoran's ass. "I'll see you tonight," Chakotay lovingly said before giving Tabor a slow wink. Tom felt a knife twist in his heart. One whole year before he got over him and here he was not giving a fuck about his feelings, flaunting himself not only with his latest lover but trying it on with Harry as well. "What were you saying Tom," Chakotay slowly looked him up and down and then meeting and holding Tom's gaze. "What the fuck are you playing at. I know you tried to seduce Harry. Do you hate me that much that you try to spoil any chance of happiness that I have. You've got Tabor, why are you chasing Harry? Why do you want Harry? Please Chakotay," Tom could hear the desperation in his voice. "Please just let us be happy." "You're wrong Tom." Chakotay leant forward so he was whispering in Tom's ear. "I don't want Harry, I want you." Tom gave an involuntary shiver, the hair on his neck bristling. "I want you Tom. I want you on your knees with my cock so down your throat you can't breath. I want you in my bed with me buried so far in you that you scream for mercy." All the time he was talking he was getting nearer and nearer to Tom. Tom was backing away but had nowhere to go. Chakotay reached up and held his face and gently touched his lips to Tom's. Tom tried to resist but Chakotay kept kissing him, gently and with feeling. The younger man began to melt into the Commander's touch and for what seemed like ages they kissed with tenderness. Somewhere in the recesses of his mind Tom knew this was wrong but it felt so right. Chakotay's hands were roaming all over Tom's now shaking body and before Tom realised what was happening Chakotay was on his knees, slowly licking up the length of Tom's straining erection. "Oh fuck." Tom closed his eyes, all thoughts of Harry gone, the only thoughts he had were of those warm, soft lips giving him pleasure. Tom looked down, taking in Chakotay knelt at his feet, bringing back memories and with a groan he came, gushing down his ex-lover's throat. Chakotay stood up and took Tom in his arms. "I love you Tom Paris, never forget that. Now you'd better go before Harry misses you." [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Make a clean sweep of pop-up ads. Yahoo! Companion Toolbar. Now with Pop-Up Blocker. Get it for free! http://us.click.yahoo.com/L5YrjA/eSIIAA/yQLSAA/5x3olB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEM-S/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: ASCEM-S-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/ From ???@??? Sat Jun 05 20:16:18 2004 X-Persona: Status: U Return-Path: Received: from n33.grp.scd.yahoo.com ([66.218.66.101]) by condor (EarthLink SMTP Server) with SMTP id 1bwLie6Ke3NZFjK0 for ; Sat, 5 Jun 2004 17:13:42 -0700 (PDT) X-eGroups-Return: sentto-1978024-8159-1086480822-stephenbratliff=earthlink.net@returns.groups.yahoo.com eceived: from [66.218.66.27] by n33.grp.scd.yahoo.com with NNFMP; 06 Jun 2004 00:13:42 -0000 X-Sender: campbratcher@psci.net X-Apparently-To: ASCEM-S@yahoogroups.com Received: (qmail 97979 invoked from network); 6 Jun 2004 00:13:41 -0000 Received: from unknown (66.218.66.166) by m21.grp.scd.yahoo.com with QMQP; 6 Jun 2004 00:13:41 -0000 Received: from unknown (HELO mailstore.psci.net) (63.65.184.2) by mta5.grp.scd.yahoo.com with SMTP; 6 Jun 2004 00:13:40 -0000 Received: from max (as4-d59-rp-psci.psci.net [63.92.109.155]) by mailstore.psci.net (8.12.2/8.12.2) with SMTP id i560DSQX014738 for ; Sat, 5 Jun 2004 19:13:28 -0500 Message-ID: <009d01c44b5b$2c0d6900$9b6d5c3f@max> To: "ASCEM-S" X-Priority: 3 X-MSMail-Priority: Normal X-Mailer: Microsoft Outlook Express 6.00.2800.1158 X-MimeOLE: Produced By Microsoft MimeOLE V6.00.2800.1165 X-eGroups-Remote-IP: 63.65.184.2 From: "Keith & Jessica Bratcher" X-Yahoo-Profile: sileya MIME-Version: 1.0 Mailing-List: list ASCEM-S@yahoogroups.com; contact ASCEM-S-owner@yahoogroups.com Delivered-To: mailing list ASCEM-S@yahoogroups.com Precedence: bulk List-Unsubscribe: Date: Sat, 5 Jun 2004 19:14:01 -0500 Subject: [ASCEM-S] NEW: VOY C/P Disappeared, without a trace 7/9 R - NC17 Reply-To: "Keith & Jessica Bratcher" Content-Type: text/plain; charset=US-ASCII Content-Transfer-Encoding: 7bit X-ELNK-AV: 0 Title: Disappeared, without a trace 7/9 Author: Darksusie - February 04 Series: Voyager Pairing C/P P/K C/other Rating: R - NC17 Disclaimer: Voyager and her crew are the property of Paramount. Summary: Chakotay brings Harry up to speed with Tom made his way down the corridor. What had he done? But the thought of Chakotay telling him he loved him wouldn't leave him and despite himself he felt a glow. This had been more like the Chakotay of old and he had said he loved Tom. He needed to talk to someone about his mixed feeling and with this in mind he headed to see the Captain. After a long talk, the Captain had suggested that the marriage be postponed indefinitely. Both her and Tuvok had kept an eye on the Commander but had not seen any of the worrying behaviour Tom had mentioned. She also advised having a good talk with Harry and for Tom to be honest about his mixed up emotions. Better to postpone than find out the marriage was a mistake. Feeling just a little lighter he walked into his cabin. "Hi Harry." Suddenly his jaw felt like it was exploding as Harry's fist connected with his face. "You fucking whore. He's been back 5 minutes and you're rutting with him like the slut you are." Tom just stared at him rubbing his jaw. "You don't have to say anything, lover boy told me the full sordid story. He apologised for seducing you. Told me it wasn't your fault. He couldn't help sucking you off as he was so turned on by you, that he had always liked the taste of you. What's the matter Tom, no not in your vocabulary? Our wedding slipped your mind. Is he that good you forgot about me?" Harry's voice was full of disgust. Tom found his voice. "Please Harry it wasn't like that. You don't know what he's been like. He's been threatening me, threatened to kill you. Then he was so nice and then he confused me and." "Fucking save it Tom, I've always been second best. Stay away from me. Go whore yourself to Mr Fucking Perfect." Harry turned to go. "Please Harry, I love you, you've got to believe it. It's just, you don't know how Chakotay's been behaving, he's fucking with my head. Please Harry, lets talk this over. Don't leave me, don't let him break us up." Harry gave Tom a withering look. "Your mind's not the only thing he's been fucking with." "No, No Harry nothing like that's happened. I wouldn't do that to you." Tom implored. "Stow it Tom, you disgust me," and Harry turned and left. Tom sat on the couch with his head in his hands. His life was falling apart. Chakotay was deliberately trying to hurt him, it was obvious now. But why did Chakotay tell him he loved him? Too many questions and no answers. He couldn't go back and confront the Commander, he was too scared what might happen, what he might let happen. Harry made his way to the observation lounge. He had so much to think about. He loved Tom but for weeks now he'd thought that they could be making a mistake. Harry had lusted after Tom from the start and was filled with love, hope and arousal when they first got together. He had wanted Tom for such a long time that he was just grateful that they had a chance to be together. But as the love grew he wasn't sure if it was a healthy relationship. They were both needy and Tom really needed a stronger partner to bring the best out in him. Now Chakotay had pushed the issue and Harry had mixed feelings about it. With these thoughts going through his mind he didn't see Tabor sat staring out the window till he heard him sob. Harry went over and they began talking. Chakotay had told Tabor about the incident with Tom but had said it hadn't meant anything, that Tabor and the Commander could carry on as though nothing had occurred. Tabor sobbed on Harry's shoulder as he told him he didn't thing he could carry on with Chakotay, it hurt him too much to think about what he had done with Tom. They talked over what had happened and Harry told him how upset he was, not only with the Commander but with Tom as well. Harry couldn't remember at which point in the conversation they had moved together but suddenly they found themselves kissing and kissing passionately. Harry pulled away. "Tabor, I'm so sorry. We're both unhappy, we shouldn't be doing this." Tabor looked at him. "I'd like you to do it again?" Harry hesitated and then pulled him into his arms. They didn't hear the doors open. The first they knew was when Harry was pulled off Tabor and they heard a menacing voice. "Well, well Harry, I'm seeing you in a different light." The Commander's face was hard, unemotional. "Fuck off, Commander." Harry turned, the anger making him bold, and foolish. "Tabor go to your cabin, now." The voice held no argument. Harry watched as the dejected Bajoran departed. "So you're not content with fucking my old lover but you're getting it on with my present lover. What should I do with you?" Chakotay's voice had the tone that told Harry he was on the edge but he didn't care, he was sick of being toyed with. "I don't know what your game is but if you remember Commander," and this was said with a sneer, "you started it by going after Tom. We were supposed to be getting married but you come along and fuck it up and then have the audacity to blame me." Chakotay stepped nearer, his voice warningly low. "You'll recall ensign, that I was actually with Tom first and you came along when he was vulnerable and took advantage. He belonged to me and you took what was mine. Don't think I didn't see you looking at him when we were together. I could see the lust in your eyes even if Tom couldn't and now you make a move on Tabor when he's upset. Is that the only way you can get a man Harry, wait till their vulnerable and then pounce. Now I'm warning you to keep away from Tom and Tabor, they both belong to me." The Commander's voice was now practically a growl. "Fuck you Commander, don't blame me if you can't keep your men. Tom's m." Chakotay's fist hit him in the jaw and his left hit him in the midriff. As Harry brought up his hands to protect his face, the Commander carried on hitting Harry till he fell to the ground unconscious. The senior team were in a meeting and Tom paled when the Captain asked if anyone knew Harry's whereabouts. She pointedly looked at him, Tom knew she would have heard the rumours of their argument by now. "I'm sorry Captain I don't know where he is. We've had a bust up and he was very upset when he left me." Tom struggled to keep in control. "Did you argue over the Commander?" The captain rubbed her head in exasperation. The whole situation was unravelling and she couldn't seem to put her finger on what was wrong apart from rumour and gossip. The computer console came alive. "Captain can you please come down to the sickbay, Mr Kim has been injured and I suggest that you get a security team down to Ensign Tabor's quarters. I will give you more details when you get here." "Tuvok take a team. Tom you're with me." The pilot's heart was beating double time. 'Please god let Harry be all right. I'll make him happy, just let him be all right.' Tom repeated the thought over and over while the short journey to sick bay felt twice as long. When they arrived Harry was coming around, looking sickly and weary but non-the worse for wear. "Report, doctor," the Captain said tersely. "Mr Kim was found in Observation Lounge One twenty minutes ago, suffering extensive multiple injuries, all which have been healed. Ensign Kim informed me that Commander Chakotay was the culprit and that he feared for Ensign Tabor's safety." "What makes you thing Tabor is in danger, Mr Kim?" Janeway studied the young man's face. Tom stepped forward. "I don't understand why Chakotay should attack you, Harry?" Harry glanced at both of them and mumbled something as his head fell down. "I didn't hear you Harry, we need to know what happened," the Captain squeezed his shoulder for support. Harry looked at the Captain, studiously ignoring his lover. "Tom and I had a big row and I walked to the observation lounge. When I got there Tabor was very agitated. Chakotay had told him something that had upset him. We got talking and I tried to comfort him." Harry coughed, clearly getting nervous. "Somehow we ended up kissing." Harry gave a sideways glance at Tom, "and Chakotay caught us. He told Tabor to go and then warned me to stay away from both Tom and Tabor and then he beat me up. Captain there's something very, very wrong with him. He said both Tom and Tabor belonged to him. I thought he was going to kill me. Has he hurt Tabor?" Janeway held up her hand to Harry, "I don't know about the ensign, Tuvok's down there now. I need to know what you and Tom argued about and if you know what Chakotay told Tabor to upset him. Can you?" Harry took a deep breath and looked at Tom. "Captain," the pilot began, "Chakotay seduced me, sort of. We didn't have sex but we, well we did things. He didn't force me. He told me he loved me. While I was talking with you he found Harry and told him what had happened. I don't know why he told Harry except to cause trouble. I assume he told Tabor and that was why he was upset. Is that right Harry?" Harry nodded miserably. Just at that moment Tuvok entered the sickbay with Tabor. "Doctor can you check over Ensign Tabor, I don't think he is badly hurt but he needs some treatment." Tabor went with the doctor. "Captain, Commander Chakotay is in the brig. I found him in the ensign's quarters, he had just handed out what he called old fashioned discipline. I have to inform you Captain that the Commander is acting irrationally and I think this is more than a romantic liaison or liaisons that have got out of hand. Something is seriously amiss with the Commander, he is totally acting out of character." "I agree Tuvok." The captain nodded towards the doctor's office, "shall we continue this in the office. "Alright Tuvok tell me the full story." 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Summary: An old friend of Chakotay's pays a visit "I entered the ensign's cabin and found both men naked. Ensign Tabor was strapped down and the Commander had caned him and was preparing him for the act of sex. The ensign was terrified and an unwilling partner in this act. I released Tabor and while the ensign dressed I spoke with Commander Chakotay in the lounge. He was unaware of any wrongdoing. When I asked him about Ensign Kim he said that Mr Kim had taken his First Chosen and was now trying to seduce his Second Chosen. This he could not tolerate so had taught him a lesson. As for Ensign Tabor, the Commander felt Mr Kim had distracted him and once he had taught him his place things would be all right. I am very concerned about the Commander, his behaviour is totally illogical. I spoke with Ensign Tabor on our way to sickbay and he assured me that the Commander had shown him only care and respect, up until today." "Right, as soon as the two ensigns are able I want us to meet in the briefing room. We will get every piece of evidence together and get to the bottom of this. One way or another." Senior members of the staff were sat, waiting for Tabor who had just been released from sickbay. The Captain had just begun summarising the return of the Commander, when a call came from the bridge. "Captain, we have an alien vessel approaching us." Ayala's strong voice broke into the discussion. All members of the meeting filed out to the bridge. "On screen" A sleek , powerful ship appeared on the screen. Nobody could miss the marking of the eagle. "Open a channel." Janeway took a deep breath, a sense of foreboding beginning to build. On the screen was a stunning looking man, humanoid in appearances. His hair, burnished gold, hung down to his waist, his eyes the brightest green. His face was open, friendly and the sense of foreboding lessened a little. "I am Captain Janeway of the Starship Voyager. How can we be of assistance?" "Hello Captain Janeway. It is an honour to meet you at last. My name is Prince j'mato of the Ochreto outlands. You can assist me by handing over me First Chosen." Janeway swapped a glance with Tuvok, the meaning clear. This was the phrase used by Chakotay when talking about Tom. "I am sorry, but I am afraid I don't know your First Chosen. All the people on this ship are crew." Janeway noticed that the friendly demeanour had changed and that the prince's attention had turned to the crew stood to her right. "I assume you're the wondrous Tom." The prince said with something of a sneer on his face. Tom stepped forward. "What do you mean by that?" Janeway stopped him. "How do you know my pilot?" The captain enquired. "Oh I have never met him, but when my First Chosen first arrived he talked endlessly about him. How wonderful he was, how beautiful, when he fell in love with me he soon forgot his blue eyed blonde. Now enough talking. Deliver him to me now. I am sure his imbalance has become apparent by now and only I can help him. Deliver him to me." His voice held a chilled note. "What imbalance?" Tom couldn't help himself. The Captain gave him a warning look. "We are linked and he will be suffering from the withdrawal, I have the means to counter the effects. Where is he?" "As I have told you we have only the crew on board," the Captain stared at the visitor. "Chakotay is mine. We need to be together. Return him or I will fire on your ship and believe me we can destroy you." "Commander Chakotay is a member of my crew. He will stay here." All of a sudden the Prince's face changed, becoming the welcoming visage of earlier. "May I come over Captain and discuss this face to face. I assure you I don't want any unpleasantness. I only want what is good for my First Chosen. Neither of us wants him to suffer." "Very well, you may transport over." The captain indicated to Tuvok that a security team should be on standby. Three beamed directly to the conference room. "Captain, this is my Second Chosen." He introduced a beautiful dark haired man and this is my Third Chosen," introducing an equally beautiful woman. "Captain, may I see him, my First Chosen. I am suffering just as much from our separation. Surely if he wants to return to me you cannot hold him against his will?" "Before I decide anything I want the full story." The captain settled in her seat. The prince nodded. "When Chakotay's shuttle got pulled through the rift he was rescued by one of my team. He was ill for quite some time and the man's family looked after him for a few weeks and then we were introduced. I knew straight away that he would be my First Chosen. He is a fine specimen of a man. You must have been so sad to lose such a being. At first he talked of Tom and his wish to see him again. But we developed a friendship and then we bonded. We offered to repair his ship but by then we had forged the link and that could not be broken. He did not want to return to Voyager, said there was nothing to return to." The Captain glanced at Tom, seeing the hurt in his eyes. Tom began to say something, but the Captain forestalled him. "If he was so happy with you why did he return?" "Unfortunately one of my lesser Chosen was jealous of Chakotay's position so he drugged him, put him on the shuttle and set the automatic pilot. He was hoping that there would be an accident. I assure you Captain the man concerned is now dead." "I think it is now time to bring the Commander into this conversation. Tuvok, Tom you're with me. If you would care to join us, "Janeway curtly said to her guests. "We will see what Chakotay has to say on this matter." As soon as they entered the brig Janeway sensed the sexual energy given off by the Prince. Chakotay stood, looking bewildered. "Captain I need to hold him, he is confused, hurting. If you let me touch him, he will see things more clearly." The Prince was becoming very agitated, staring at the Commander with longing. "First, things first," she turned to the Commander. "Chakotay do you know this man, these people." "I, I don't know, they look familiar but I can't quite grasp." all of a sudden he bellowed and threw himself at the force field." At the same time the Prince sank to his knees, crying out in anguish. P'teme, the Third Chosen stepped forward and spoke to the other man. "Take the prince back and attend to his needs. He will need you now. I will continue negotiations." The man helped the Prince to his feet. "Please transport them back Captain." Chakotay was now curled up in a corner of his cell, wailing in anguish. P'teme stepped forward and crooned to him, slowly calming him down. "He will sleep now, I think we have much to discuss. Things are not as they seem, Captain." Settling down with her senior staff and her guest, she waited for the full story. "I need your word Captain that nothing of what I say will get back to the Prince. He will have me killed and in his anger he will destroy your ship." The alien looked pensive and agitated. "You have my word." [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Yahoo! Domains - Claim yours for only $14.70 http://us.click.yahoo.com/Z1wmxD/DREIAA/yQLSAA/5x3olB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEM-S/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: ASCEM-S-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/ From ???@??? 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Summary: Chakotay says goodbye "We have done a great wrong to your comrade. It was like the prince said he was rescued and taken in by one of our men. As soon as the prince saw him he wanted him. But Chakotay only wanted to return. All he talked about was Voyager, his love for the Captain and for Tom," she glanced at the pilot. Both the Captain and Tom swallowed the hard lump that had formed in their throats at the thought of Chakotay left alone. "The prince is allowed any number of companions but each companion has to fight for their position, through physical strength and sexual prowess. The prince wanted Chakotay to be his First Chosen but the commander wasn't interested." The woman looked down at her hands, hesitant to go on. Looking up, she looked straight at Tom. "This is our way. While Chakotay was ill, he was given herbs that caused memory loss. As he forgot Voyager he became subject to the Prince's allure. When Chakotay's will was at it's weakest, a link was made with the Prince. Once the link was made Chakotay wanted no-one else but the Prince." "What do you mean by link, " Tom asked not really wanting to know the answer. "The Prince coupled with Chakotay. Once he had the prince's essence within his body Chakotay could not refuse him anything." "Are you saying Chakotay was unwilling." "I am saying he was not in a condition to know what he was doing but he was not forced." Tom paled and looked at the Captain. She laid a hand on his arm to steady him. "Once the Commander had developed the bond, drugs were administered to increase his aggression. He was such a calm and peaceful person that the Prince needed to bring out the suppressed aggression. He was soon the First Chosen. He must not be allowed to return to the prince, his life is in danger. The man who tried to kill him is the man who was here earlier. He will not allow Chakotay to continue to be the First Chosen. He will eventually find away to kill Chakotay." "Can the link and the drugs be reversed?" the Captain asked hopefully "The bond is already breaking down. Bodily contact is crucial to keeping the link going. As the link breaks down so will his memories of his time with us. I can see this is already happening. But the drug is more difficult. It has only been used a few times. We don't get many off worlders. In our people this change in body chemistry is natural. It takes a month to work through the body. In that time Chakotay will go from crying to fits of rage to thoughts of suicide. He will try to gather his harem, if he's not already started. He will have the urge to take people by force. His behaviour will be erratic and sometimes aggressive. He will have moments were his old personality takes precedent and he will be full of guilt about the way he has treated you. This is when he will be most suicidal. It will not be easy and I don't know how he will feel when he returns to his old self. There is no known remedy to counteract these effects, it just takes time. I have a sample of the drug for your doctor to look at, he may be able to help Chakotay. But our main concern is how to convince the Prince to leave him." The senior staff discussed ideas but nothing they could come up with seemed appropriate. P'teme said that if the Prince suspected any foul play he would take Chakotay by force and destroy the ship. She assured them they had the firepower. "What if Chakotay died. Would the Prince leave then?" the EMH gave them a smug smile. "Explain yourself doctor." The Captain said curtly. "If I administer a drug that faked death, we could inform the prince that he had gone into shock and had a heart attack. Would he believe that?" he asked the alien. "Yes he would, but he would have to say his goodbyes to the body. I will go back to our ship and explain that you are willing to let him speak to the Commander in the morning. If you communicate his death to us, we will transport over, the Prince can pay his respects and we can put this whole affair behind us. I cannot apologise enough to you and your crew. Good luck, let us pray that it all goes to plan. Please don't hold the First Chosen responsible for anything that as occurred, Chakotay was a good man." Tom didn't like the way she said 'was' but let it ride. Chakotay wasn't in a fit state by the time they got back to the brig to have anything explained to him so the doctor administered the drug to mimic death and the final procedure was put into place. Tom and the Captain looked down at Chakotay on the bio bed. They knew he wasn't dead but he sure looked it. Tom didn't have to pretend to be upset. The emotions of the previous days overtook him as he glanced at the deathly appearance of his ex-lover's face. The Prince moved forward and took Chakotay's hand, kissed it and began to chant. Tom, Tuvok and the Captain moved back out of respect. The Prince began to kiss the Commander with increasing passion. Tom looked alarmed but a hand on his arm stopped him from moving forward. Before they knew what was happening the prince was laid out fully on top of the Commander, kissing and caressing, while chanting. Tom moved forward, the Captain beginning to protest. The Third Chosen held her hand up and gave them a warning look. "This is our way". As Tom turned to the Captain, they heard the prince give out a heart wrenching cry and saw him give a one last kiss. He stood next to his people, once again composed. "Goodbye captain. You were indeed blessed to have known him. He was truly god given." And with that they were gone. Within seconds the doctor was at Chakotay's side administering an antidote. "He will have to be restrained and sedated, Captain. I have been unable to find anything to counteract his withdrawal symptoms, so all I can suggest is that once he has recovered from the sedation he is beamed back to the brig and observed until he his back to normal self." Next day Chakotay was back in the brig, none the worse for the previous day's incident but certainly worse for the withdrawal. "How is he Ayala?" "It's bad Tom. I just wish we could have back the Commander we all know and love. This one's a monster. He's either threatening to kill you or trying to seduce you." Tom stepped forward "Hi, Chakotay, how you doing?" "Well if it isn't Paris, the little slut. If you're expecting me to suck you off again you little whore think again. I'm sure you can get Kim on his knees, the little fucker. You know he's fucking Tabor don't you. Well you can tell him you're both mine." Chakotay flung himself at the barrier and fell to the floor. Tom backed away towards Ayala. Chakotay sat down with his head in his hands. Ayala was telling Tom about the Captain's visit, when they heard a quiet, "Tom, come here." "Seduction time now," Ayala whispered. Tom moved forward unable to help himself. "Tom, you are looking so good." Tom knew that he looked like shit. "Spirits Tom I want you so much. I am so hard for you. I wake up wanting to touch you, wanting you to touch me. You know we belong together, we're good together." Chakotay was practically purring. "Let him through Greg and I'll see you right later." "Yeah, Commander, I'm sure you will. Come away Paris." "You bastard, Ayala. I knew you were sniffing around him and that little slut will just open his legs or his mouth for anyone." Chakotay yelled and again threw himself at the force field. This time he passed out. Tom didn't visit after that, it hurt too much. He didn't see Harry either. They'd talked and agreed that the best thing would be to call it a day. Maybe over time they would get their friendship back. He'd heard over the grapevine that Harry had seen Tabor a couple of times. He wished them well. Chakotay was released to his quarters but refused to see anyone but the Captain and the doctor. Three weeks passed with only the news that the drug was out of Chakotay's system and that he was finding it difficult to come to terms with what had happened. One morning at the staff briefing, everyone sat down waiting for Tabor to join the group. "I've asked Ensign Tabor to join the start of this meeting as it concerns the future of Commander Chakotay." Janeway looked around the crew, her family and sighed. It was never easy losing one of their own. Especially one she had relied on, had called a friend. "The Commander has requested that he be let of the ship at the next friendly planet, which we will arrive at tomorrow. I've already spoken to the government there and they will be delighted to welcome him." Tom started to speak. "Let me finish, Lieutenant. Chakotay cannot come to terms with what he has done, how he has treated you. He is on constant suicide watch and he says the only way out is either death or a life away from the people he hurt. I have done my utmost to dissuade him. He has prepared a recording he would like us to see." Chakotay's face came onto the screen. Tom was appalled at how drawn and haggard he looked. The Commander began to speak in a controlled but shaky voice. "I would like to apologise to the crew of this ship for the hurt and trouble I have caused. I hope they know I would not intentionally hurt them in any way. I am totally ashamed of my behaviour to a crew who have only shown me the utmost kindness and friendship. I need to single out a few people who I hurt the most. Harry Kim, you have been a most exemplary crewman, giving your best time and time again. But most of all you have always been there for Mr Paris." He swallowed and took a moment to gain control of his emotions again. "You comforted him and loved him in his time of distress and I cannot begin to tell you how sorry I am that I caused the breach in your relationship. I hope you can put this behind you and once again love Mr Paris." Chakotay stopped while he sipped some water, the stress of his last message to his crewmates telling on him. "Tabor, I have nothing but respect and affection for you. I want you to know that I really cared for you and that I regret deeply any physical and emotional damage I did to you. You have been a good friend when I needed it the most." Tom turned to him and saw the tears running down his face as Harry reached over and squeezed the ensign's hand. "Kathryn, I have let you down and this causes me great pain. I not only love you as a captain but as a dear friend. This friendship I will hold dear in my heart. It has been an honour and a pleasure to work with you." Tom was choked, he had got to the captain and hadn't mentioned him. Tears began to fill his eyes. Chakotay began to speak again. "My greatest apology is to Mr Paris. I have done nothing but cause him pain when all he gave was his love and care, which I didn't deserve." Chakotay stopped speaking, closed his eyes, as he steadied himself. "Four years ago I was lucky enough to begin a relationship with Mr Paris. That following year was the happiest year of my life. But in all that time I never told him how I felt. Tom, I loved you then and I still love you. All I can say is remember the man I was and not the man I became." The screen went blank. "Captain you can't let him go, I've lost him once, I can't lose him again. Please let me talk to him." Tom stood preparing to leave, the tears still running down his face. "Mr Paris, he has made it quite plain that he does not wish to see you and he has told me that if I make him stay he will take his own life. I do not want that on my conscience. I have tried every argument but I have to abide by Chakotay's wishes. Everyone dismissed." Tom didn't know how he got through the morning but eventually he was relieved. Harry had asked to have a word with him but he didn't wait. He had to talk to Chakotay, he hadn't given up yet. He pressed the chime. In the end he was reduced to banging on the door, begging Chakotay to talk to him. After half an hour he slid to the floor, not caring who saw him weeping. When shift was over he made his way to the mess hall. His mind was pre-occupied with how to reach Chakotay so he didn't notice Harry and Tabor approach him Tom looked up, the frustration showing on his face. "If you're here to gloat don't bother." Tom snapped. "Gloat about what exactly." Harry was equally as terse. "About Chakotay. I bet you two can't wait to see the back of him." Tom put his head in his hands. "You're wrong Tom, we came over to see if there is anything we can do. Have you spoken to him?" Tabor and Harry sat down. "Tom, we don't hate him, we want to help him. It wasn't his fault, can't he see that." "He won't let me anywhere near him so I don't know what he's thinking. If I could just get in and talk to him." B'Elanna and Ayala joined them. "Any luck with Chakotay." Tom just shook his head, dejectedly. "Tom, what if we could override the security on his cabin. Do you think you can get through to him?" Torres looked at him hopefully. "I'll give it a fucking good shot. We can't let him go without trying." "Right 1900 hours your cabin, Tom. OK." Everyone nodded in agreement. The pilot lay on his bed rehearsing the words he would say. His stomach clenched with nerves as the importance of what he was about to do, hit him. He had only one go at this. It had to be the best. 1900 hours and everyone was on time. It took Harry and B'Elanna 30 minutes before they had figured the codes. "Right Tom, you and Ayala get to the Commander's cabin. Comm us and we'll take off the security codes. You'll have 30 seconds to get in. Ayala will wait outside in case." "In case of what?" Tom asked defensively. "In case he gets violent, its possible." Ayala gripped his arm, reassuringly. Tom looked around at his friends. "Thanks." Everyone nodded. Outside the Commander's cabin, Tom took a couple of deep breaths. Ayala again gripped his arm, encouragingly. Tom commed Harry and B'elanna. Not pausing he walked towards the doors, which immediately opened. He saw Chakotay sitting forlornly on the couch. "Please stay. The ship needs you. The crew needs you. I need you." "Get out of my quarter's Mr Paris before I call security. I said all I needed to say in the recording." The anger in Tom came out of nowhere, his rehearsed speech going out of the airlock. "Yeah that's right Commander, run away from your responsibilities. Take the coward's way out." "I'm doing the honourable thing here. Can't you see that?" Chakotay was using all his will power to stay in control. "Honourable, how can you call it honourable. You've never cared for me have you. You never said you loved me before but I though you cared. But I can see now you didn't then and you don't now." Tom spit out the words, his anger boiling over. "You're wrong. I loved you then, even though I didn't tell you and I love you now. I told you that in the recording." "Just words Chakotay, they don't mean anything. If you love me, why are you leaving?" "It's for the best." "The best for who, you." Tom saw the hurt and confusion in Chakotay's eyes. "You bastard. You're going to leave me alone. Again! Harry has Tabor now. Greg has Geron. B'elanna has her engines. I have no one Chakotay. I cried for a year, a fucking year. I was taken off the helm because I couldn't live without you. You owe me". By now Tom was crying, unashamedly, the words coming out in great sobs. Chakotay stepped forward, hesitating. As Tom looked like he was about to collapse, he stepped forward and pulled Tom into his arms, sobbing also. "Please Chakotay say you'll stay. Let's see if we can work it out. Please." Tom clung to the Commander as though his life depended on it and at that moment it did. Chakotay gave a nod and held Tom tighter. Eventually, after he had calmed down, Tom went outside and told Greg he could leave and that they were talking, trying to sort things out. "I don't know if I can do this Tom. I look at you and all I see is the pain I caused you." "Do you know what I see when I look at you?" Tom reached out for his hand. "I don't think I want to know." "I don't see the man of the last few weeks. I see the man who loved me for a year. The man who can make me shake with desire. The man who can make me hard just by looking at me. The man who sets my heart on fire." Chakotay took a deep breath. The old link to the Prince was broken, he needed to forge a new link, a link with the man he loved. "Tom, will you make love to me." Chakotay's hand shook as he took Tom's hand. "No." Chakotay let go of Tom's hand and walked to the other side of the room. "Chakotay." The commander turned. Tom was undoing his shirt buttons, slowly and seductively "I don't want to make love to you now, maybe later." Tom took off his shirt and Chakotay couldn't take his eyes off him. "What I want and what I've wanted for a long time, is for you to fuck me and fuck me hard. Just like you use too." Chakotay moaned and grabbed the pilot, kissing him long and hard. "You know Tom, we just can't go back to the way things were." Tom smiled, "I know we'll just start again, from the beginning." The end Back [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] Yahoo! Domains - Claim yours for only $14.70 http://us.click.yahoo.com/Z1wmxD/DREIAA/yQLSAA/5x3olB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ASCEM-S/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: ASCEM-S-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com <*> Your use of Yahoo! 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